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Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Day 48 of Maintenance, aka Week 7.

I am incredibly happy with myself. I'm nearing my One Year Anniversary since I started this journey (Nove 16th), and I keep thinking, "WOW!!! I can't believe how I was and how I am today!!"

(NOTE TO SELF: Create new before/after pics.)

A lot of my blog posts go into how I eat differently now, how I am more active, how I love to shop, how I love how clothes fit on me, how healthy I feel and am now. All of this is true. But sometimes, I get busy and forget: I have come a LONG way. And today, Day 48 of Maintenance, I weighed-in at 157 pounds. A negative person could say, "Oh, you've gained 4 pounds from your lowest weight!!" But I don't look at it that way. Instead, I think, "I've lost 111 pounds and have stayed within 5 pounds of my goal weight of 155! I'm AWESOME!!!"

This isn't to say I haven't had my panics. Hoooo, boy!! The first weigh-in panic came after traveling to Arizona. I was concerned I had gained a huge amount of weight (as I did consume alcohol and a couple of meals that were "iffy" - things like hummus and pita, with not as much veggies as I wanted). I was dreading stepping on that scale, but I knew if I didn't, I would slip and slide and it would not be right. So I sucked it up and stepped on.

156 pounds.

See? What was there to fear?

The problem is, I've spent SO MANY YEARS being afraid of what I ate. And being off the Medifast Meals (for the most part - I still eat a couple every day as snacks) means that I choose what to eat. And while I choose mostly healthy things, I am ALWAYS afraid that one unhealthy indulgence will turn into 20 pounds and a regression.

I've lost the weight, but I still see that my mind needs retraining. Maintenance is a journey after all; it is the second, more important, phase of permanent weight loss (and health!!!). Because, like all the articles say, it's OK to have chocolate at night, to eat froyo, to have a few extra chips. It's OK to enjoy what you eat. There's nothing to feel guilty about.

It all comes back to BALANCE and HEALTH. I enjoy a couple of squares of dark chocolate, instead of half a bag of Halloween candy (which, BTW, isn't all that great anyway, at least IMO). I'll fill a small bowl with frozen yogurt instead of eating half a carton of Dreyers' Cookies and Cream. And instead of binging on an entire bag of chips, I'll set aside a serving of healthy(ish) chips (you know, those "Way Better Snacks" brands and such) and eat some hummus and carrots with it.

And the other part is being active. You see, I do sometimes eat more than I should - and then I go to Zumba for an hour or spin or run. No, I shouldn't eat more than I exercise, but I'm certainly not the sedentary creature I was last year.

So I'm still learning. I still worry and panic and fret - but I'm trying to let go and live. Enjoy myself, while still being healthy. And I think I'm doing pretty darned good, if you ask me!

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
CHRIAMARIA1983 11/25/2013 5:14PM

    Wow! I hadn't read your blogs since this spring! I'm so glad to hear that you are in maintenance!

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AJDOVER1 11/13/2013 4:39PM

    Balance and Health -- that's what it's all about. I'm also within 5 pounds of my low weight. I make different choices about food and fitness now. This is a lifestyle I find comfortable and I can maintain it. I know there will be challenges, but it's worth it to me.

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HOOKEMBABY422 11/13/2013 9:46AM

    It's so great that you've realized this is your life, not just a short period of time of drastic dieting. Lives are meant to be lived in exuberance, not fear. And everyday is a new chance to practice :)

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FLDEEZ 11/13/2013 9:21AM

    Great thoughts. I'm FINALLY starting to realize it's about changing your mindset & lifestyle.

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PENNYLANE15 11/13/2013 8:55AM

    I think you're doing a good job w/ maintenance!! It's going to take some time to figure out how much your body needs so a pound here and there is okay ---you'll find that medium and will stay at your goal weight!! I'm 6lbs from my goal weight adn I'm terrified of maintenance! haha!! Keep up the good work!

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SOOVERMYSELF 11/12/2013 10:37PM

    You continue to be a great inspiration Carolyn! I'll be raising a medifast shake to you on the 16th! Well done girl!

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STEVEN_D 11/12/2013 9:42PM

    Good for you! Choosing to exercise and eat better gives you the strength to feel good about yourself. Keep going and live your life and be happy.

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IMAVISION 11/12/2013 9:18PM

    I enjoyed reading your blog. emoticon

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SMILES_CAN_DO 11/12/2013 7:31PM

  I think you're doing pretty darn good too!

I love reading your blogs. You're so positive and that inspires me! Keep up the great work!

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PRINCESS_SOFI 11/12/2013 7:27PM

    emoticon I guess it's a lifelong effort.

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