Tuesday, November 12, 2013
This morning I hit 177.4 after seeing 177.5 on my ticker for so long. So I'm 75% of the way to my goal weight! However, in the past 5 days, I've been to the gym 4 times and ran 3-4 miles each of those days.
I realize that I'm at a weight now that just eating right, doesn't really give me much progress any more. I have to exercise to see progress, which is what I'm seeing.
But this makes me very scared to take a break. My knees and ankles have been aching. Nothing too painful, maybe even a good ache, from being used after months of inactivity, but I just don't really feel like going to the gym this afternoon.
However, I feel like if I don't go, I'll immediately see 180.
It's crazy that even almost two years into this process, I still have these irrational fears. But I just want to be successful, and I'm so scared to be one of those people who gains it all back.
I know that I have the tools to succeed but it's just taken me so long to get here that I'm afraid to have any rest days now until I reach my goal.
But I guess we'll just see what happens when I leave work today. I packed my gym bag just in case I had a change of heart.
Regardless, I'm at my lowest weight ever, a weight I was during my 8th grade year of school, so that's pretty great. And I'm only 33 pounds from my goal weight. So having lost 97 already, I know I can do this.