I am still in a bit of my downer at the moment. I know, I hate to admit it. And I was a little embarrassed about my dark poem blog. Thank you for your comments,and to the sparkies that had never written a comment on my blogs before-thank you
That's me blushing BTW. To the readers that say or think that positiivity wins all the way, well I agree in one aspect. I try to keep my positive side at most times. But realistically I do feel down at times. I love writing poetry around my moods, the weather, anything. I do agree being positive is favourable. But sometimes things bring us down. It's not that I am weak, or haven't experienced any real sadness, or truama, or hardship. Believe me, I've felt them all. Which is how and why I like to be on top as much as possible. I've worn my rosey glasses most of my life, but I chucked them in for reality when I stopped suppressing all my feelings and experiences. To the sparkies who say or believe it is good to express ourselves-darkness, sadness, anger,whatever I agree also to a point. I think a happy medium, non of us are smiley happy all the time. I used to appear that way as a child or younger adult, but only because I couldn't face my real feelings and situations.
And this is not another dark one, although I am still feeling a little less positive than usual, and quite low.
I was getting tea started and was getting in a bad mindframe. I for a few moments started to think "I need time to get back into this" (healthy options and lifestyle), meaning my low mood and being so off track for over a week now, maybe two weeks would win. I have had the occassional day I was good.
But not many lately, I've tried but "let" my lost motivation and low moods take control. And I haven't come this far to give up and put my lost twelve kilos back on. I had put one of them back on, but haven't checked the scales since.
And what I was thinking is "I must blog and get myself back on track, not let the power of my negitive mindframe take over. I've already decided I want to be at least under 90 kilos by the time I turn fifty. I am quite capable of doing that, and I know it won't be a walk in the park. I know there will be days I feel unstoppable, but I also know there will be days I feel like no matter what I try I'll find it hard. And that is okay, because I know I want to achieve my goals and I know I can achieve them. I want so much for my next part of my life, rather than letting circumstances destroy me and hold me back. I am going to aim high and reach higher. Nothing out of my reach or unachievable-but step by step achievable.
I appreciate my Sparkie friends who come back and read more what I have to say and put up with me. And I welcome whoever comes to my blog to not take any offence or be annoyed. Thank you Sparkies. I hope you are having a good week and a good health journey. Whatever we are doing in life it is a journey and we all are at different stages. Every journey is not all plain sailing, or an even road it takes different turns and loops and we are the navigator. But even the captain or navigator isn't totally aware of what lies in wake or what unexpected turn can bring. Happy travelling Sparkies, and even a bad day is still part of the journey. Enjoy and bon voyage~