Monday, November 11, 2013
Today I had a low class. 10 preschoolers out of 19. Low stress day for me!! YES. Eating every two hours is not going to be a problem at work. I did pretty well. I am finding some great recipes on here and pinterest. I am looking forward to making them all. My only down fall today was finding enough protein rich foods. So I guess I need to re think a few menu items. I am finding I am in good spirits today. I got home and had a snack. I sometimes feel anxious when I think of food. Especially when I am trying not to think of it. Sometimes I feel I am just doing it all wrong and no mater how I try I will not get it right. Then I enter my food for the day and it comes out alright. I can't wait to break that habit. There is more to the outside appearance that I need to fix. I am scared that if I lose all this weight will I end up just a piece of flab. I get stressed thinking about it. My brain needs to be re booted or something. I know all the right words and all the right things to do and eat. Why is it so hard to just do it! Day by day I will go. I tell my class never to give up. If at first you don't succeed try, try again. Now I just need to remember that and not give up! I tell myself each morning. Do not give up. You were given another day to live life to the fullest. Do not give up , do not waste it by using food as a crutch. I deserve better. I can and will be better!