I think I finally hit rock bottom
Monday, November 11, 2013
I have heard that you have to hit your lowest point before you will actually do something to turn things around. I think I finally found my lowest point. The one that has motivated me to get going and stay going.
A few weeks ago I went to a play with my family. I couldn't keep up. I couldn't walk from the car to the theater, my husband had to drop me off at the door and then go park the car. I couldn't walk up the ramp to the second floor where our seats were. I had to stop and rest several times on the way. I was so worn out by the time I sat down I couldn't breath for 10 minutes.
Our grandson was with us and I couldn't even start to keep up with him. He was so fun to watch. I wanted to walk around with him and be part of what was going on but all I could do was sit in my seat and watch.
I spent the evening fighting tears as we watched the play. At the end of the play my husband had to go get the car and come pick me up. We couldn't even walk to the car together.
This seems to have been my lowest point. I started setting goals that weekend and haven't stopped. I seem to finally have found the motivation I needed to get busy. I want to be able to be active with my family and be part of what they are doing rather than just sitting watching everyone else play and have fun.
I have been tracking my meals in a notebook. Hopefully will convert to Spark People tracking once I get things going a little better. I got rid of all soda pop - just water, and lots of it. Once in a while I treat myself to some juice or flavored drink with lots of ice. I started exercising. All I can do is walk from the house to the road and back, but at least it's a beginning. Next goal is to go up and down my stairs at least once a day. I haven't seen my basement for over 3 months.
I'm slowly working changing eating habits. Healthier food and snacks. I have a long, long way to go but at least I think I'm finally headed in the right direction.
I'm not consistent with blogging or recording things on Spark people. I am so grateful for the web site and all the encouragement that I can find here. I have read and re-read articles and blogs for ideas and support. I love it here. This is a wonderful place to find help and ideas.
Thank you to everyone that shares and offers encouragement to those of us who are slow learners and shy about talking.