Day 155: The REAL ME and Being Honest with Myself
Monday, November 11, 2013
I cannot believe I have allowed myself to fall so far behind in my blog and my SparkPeople commitment. It has been 39 days since I last logged in and 39 days since my last day of activity. I have not exercised as I should, I am not counting calories and I am NOT following the plan of healthy living. So many promises to myself have been broken. So many days have been wasted.
Though I have not gained any weight back, I have not lost the weight I planned on either. So either way, I have neglected me. Not good.
As I look back the last 39 days, I have to be honest with myself and see what is causing the setback. I look at my schedule and really wonder how to make it all work. I get up at 5 am, time enough to pray, do my Quiet Time, and get ready for work. I leave work between 5 and 5:30 every day. Then I get home in time to make dinner and whatever else needs to be done at the home. I am usually not in the mood to exercise, wish I could get past that feeling. I am lacking motivation.
Motivation is key to accomplishing goals. There have been times where I lacked motivation, but completed the task anyway because it had to be done. But, I do not see exercise as a mandatory activity. Perhaps that is the main problem. I need to change my mindset and treat exercise as the vital part of my life that it is.
I cannot lie to myself anymore and say that I do not have the time. If I have time to watch television, i have time to exercise. Even 10 minutes is a step in the right direction. I must look at my time and see that my mindset is the reason I do not complete any activity, not the schedule I keep. So today, I shall make sure I get off my butt and exercise before I end my day.