Monday, November 11, 2013
I'm realizing that my goals and weigh-ins (I'll admit that I've been an every day weigh-er for years) are hindering rather than helping me. They are making everything about the numbers, and that isn't how I want to live life. While I set up goals to be motivational, they instead feel like burdens (the idea of not being able to do something until I hit the right number). So today I removed the scale from the bathroom and placed it on a shelf in the laundry room. I'm going to do my best to only weigh once a month. And instead of goals connected to weight, I'm going to simply do all I can to live a full life. No worries, I'm not leaving spark. My intent is still to track calories and exercise . . .
But I want to be the person who is okay with photos NOW. I'm tired of hiding or feeling embarrassed because I don't look like how I want. I know I need to learn to enjoy who I am now -- while still taking steps to improve. I think hiding the scale will help with that, as I will no longer get frustrated during a week when the scale doesn't seem to budge -- which sometimes leads me to feel down and want to overeat.
I want to get to the point where I am okay with little changes in the right direction. If I lose 1 pound in a month -- that's still a pound down (and given the upcoming holidays, that might be a realistic expectation!) and a step closer to my goal. If I'm able to do more in a workout than I could before -- THAT is something to celebrate.
I'll admit that I am nervous -- but I need to take the pressure off myself and instead allow myself to live into who I want to be.