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The Beginning is the end~*~ My gloomy Mood~

Monday, November 11, 2013

Feeling Bad~
A little sad~
Could do some screaming~
Oh no nothing gleaming~
Angry things~
They're attacking my happy mood~
Oh My Dog~
I feel like c**p~
Not so pretty~
I'm in a sh*tty~
Why so blue~
That's how I feel~
Not like dancing~
Maybe some music blasting~
So loud it roars~
Yeah yeah yeah~
Glass smashing~
Where's my boxing gloves~
Remove this rage~
Internal bleeding~
Bellowing demons~
Belting me~
Angry faces~
Upside down smiles~
It ain't so funny~
It's pure scorching hot~
It feels like fire~
Emotions squabbling~
The mean ones won~
Angry,moody,downright foul~
Tormented images~
Screaming out~
Impowering not empowering~
Attacking rosey thoughts~
Sinking in a little hole~
It's so dam dark~
I can't get out~
Sinking down~
Not so positive at this moment~
Negitivity controls this day~
Doesn't matter what I say~
Demons come to take the stage~
Emotions are inflamed in rage~
I know I must sound so pessimistic, but I feel dreadful today. I do suffer depression, but usually manage to attack it head on as quickly as I can. So that a day or two feeling crappy and I am back on the road to not being a sour puss misery guts. But today, I think I feel really negitive and feel like doing negitive things. And seizing the foul ole moment, to be blue. Maybe by the time I have even written this I might think "what a sad ole thing I sound and feel better because I don't want to be a sad sack". But feelings are feelings and maybe now and again I should acknowledge them. We all have days when all our problems, worries, annoyances and stuff all come and throw themselves at us. And every now and again they bring me down and I feel pretty low,moody,snappy,angry,sad,etc
Do you think it is too negitive to write a gloomy blog when you feel like sh*t. And you have nothing positive to say except moan moan,and feel miserable??
i am going to leave this part here and start again,but still leave this part here. I hope your not confused, hell I hope I'm not confused!! okay, so here goes. Up to the top^^^^^^^
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    Nope, it's a good thing to get it out and feel. I stopped taking antidepressants because I was never able to FEEL stuff. My psy MD didn't want me to stop taking them, until I told him why I wanted to. After I stopped taking them, things began to surface and I felt them. Feeling them allows you to deal with the issues that cause the feelings. We all need to cry sometimes, and it is okay to cry. It is okay to feel blue. Journaling, writing stories, or's all good! Share them, cause other's will relate. As a few comments have already said. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1556 days ago
  • KIM22211
    I think it is healthy to get it out! Now it is out, it is purged from you! Begin the healing and replace with the warm feeling! Love, Kim
    1562 days ago
    Can so relate!!!!!
    1563 days ago
    Sorry, you are feeling so bad today. emoticon emoticon I hope you can fight your way out soon. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1563 days ago
    I hope writing this down helps you, and I really hope your mood improves soon.
    1563 days ago
    writing is therapeutic...better to get it out than to bottle it up
    feel better emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1563 days ago
    Sending you Wishes for Strength and Light!

    Hope your mood brightens. I know the feeling ~all too well.

    Loved the poetic way you shared your feelings.

    1563 days ago
    Write down how you feel. It's important to be honest. emoticon
    1563 days ago
    Writing down your emotions is a good way to face them down. Hope you are feeling much better today.

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    1563 days ago
  • SLACHETKA103145
    I think that we all have days like this so here is a little something to help you get through it!!!!!

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    You are never alone...just reach out!
    1563 days ago
  • KAREN608
    This is the second blog I read of friends with depression. Do you think it is the time of year that hurts us? I know the dark comes so early I feel robbed of my days! It is getting inhospitable outside too.

    I have my dark days and choose not to blog about them but you did a fine job expressing this!

    I do hope it blows over quickly for you
    and know that I am praying for you.

    The other night I could not sleep.
    I had not heard of the typhoon hitting people
    but I sort of wonder if I was up praying for the
    world of people like I was even though I had
    no clue about the new disaster. The lack of
    sleep did not effect my day. These things
    puzzle me.

    It's a new week, and you know we all
    are rooting for you!!!
    1563 days ago
    I think it is good that you are expressing how you feel....By the way....Super poem! (dark....but well done.!) emoticon
    I hope you can delve into what is causing your funk...And then feel better soon....I am in a funk, too...So....I know how you are feeling.... emoticon
    Going to read some motivational blogs, quotes, try and help..... emoticon
    Life can be tough at times...Let's hang in and hang on..... emoticon emoticon
    1563 days ago
    I think it is good to write how one feels. Often it helps to get it out, get it down on paper or in print. Did it make you feel better? I hope so, and I hope tomorrow will be a better and brighter day for you.

    1563 days ago
    emoticon emoticon I get that way too, sometimes. I hate the deep dark bat caves...but they are there in spite of how I feel about them!!
    1563 days ago
  • JAROL7
    No one ... No thing ... can control your happiness without your permission. Happiness is a personal choice to people and circumstances.
    1563 days ago
    Think of your last end and you will never feel "gloomy".
    1563 days ago
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