Sunday, November 10, 2013
October was not a good month for me as far as goals or my personal life. .I think one reflected the other. I really had a setback after my seizure at the end of Sept. I was very frustrated and angry that I had had another one. It left me with a broken nose, and badly bruised ribs.
So, I was unable to work out because of my ribs. I also ate too much, something I do when I feel down about things. But it was something I had not done for a long, long time. Needless to say the feeling of guilt was knocking at my door and walked right in, uninvited. So when I was weighed at the dr.'s last week, I had gained around 7 lbs. I felt terrible. Of course, I feel like I have failed myself. My clothes fit tighter, and not so comfortable. But....I do have goals for this month of November.
1.) I would like to regain control of my eating habits.
2.) Do not condemn myself if I fall. Just pick myself up when I hit the floor.
3.) Workout again, but do not overdo.
4.) Reach out to others when I feel down. Don't be afraid to ask for help or admit that I am only human. Being human means making mistakes.
5.) Learning by those mistakes.
6.) Lose at least 3-4 of those lbs. that I gained.
Normally, whenever I have felt this down about myself, I always did a wonderful job of isolating myself, completely. But I have not done that. I have gone to school to be with those kids, so that is another thing that has been so great about working as a foster grandma. I have also been able to go online almost everyday to SP. That is also another reason I love this site so much. So, my friends, I owe you, for you have given me a reason to go on, and not hide away from life. I thank you all for that.