Sunday, November 10, 2013
My sister in law, who was my partner in weight loss failure for YEARS, got lapband surgery. I was against it, gently told her why and then supported her decision. I understand why she wanted to do it. She weighed more than me, has unsuccessfully been on every weight loss plan and diet (except for spark people) and never could lose or keep off any significant weigh.
I get that. We ALL get that. she eats a cup of food 3 times a day. There are many things she cannot have like bread, ric etc. This is her life now. I would not like to live that way. If I did eat like that, I would be skinny too! but food brings me joy, it s ritualistic, it is Friday night dates, and thanksgiving day, and birthday cake. It is tradition and love and rewards. Yes, I know this is why I'm overweight because I look at food that way, but I don't think I am alone in that.
But I AM jealous. She just posted a picture and in 3 months, she is down 5 sizes and over 60 pounds. She looks and feels great. She is proud and active and enjoying buying clothes.
Do I agree with her choice to have surgery? No.
Am I happy for her? Yes
Am I jealous that in another few months she will be done and I will still be fat and fighting whether to have chips with lunch? Hell Yea!
And I'm mad about it because I UNDERSTaND that Lapband is not the right choice for me but right about now, I sure am wishing it was.