A lot has happened to me since the last time I posted a blog - which I can't remember the date of.
I've been going through a 'Nervous Breakdown' actually called an "Emotional Breakdown" since November 2011. I had no idea that life's situations could actually 'catch up' on a person and bring them to a Complete Halt in every aspect of life.
I've struggled with a lot of things over the last 2 years: I lost my family doctor, my church, my family (they are still alive), my counselor/therapist and basically anybody who was a 'support' person or who I thought was a good friend to me.
There were times I didn't know if I would make it until the next day. I created my will just to be sure.
Typically from August until April I am sick with Bronchitis/Pneumonia. This is the FIRST year that has not happened. Through many jumping through hoops, I got referred back to the Allergist I had seen back in 2004. Now between that time and this year, my allergies went from your basic pollen, dust, and cigarette smoke, to I am allergic to:
...basically anything that doesn't swim beneath the water.
The asthma I have that was creating ALL of these Bronchitis issues where I had to be on anti-biotics and Prednisone for the duration of the winter months, has turned out to be all allergy induced.
I've been getting an allergy shot since early September and I started to take an inexpensive allergy pill until the one shot I get each month was covered - as it is VERY EXPENSIVE. It is now covered and I have yet to be sick.
I have stopped wheezing, sniffling, coughing and your typical not-well symptoms. This will be the first year in 4 that I will be able to get my FLU shot.
I have also lost a lot of mobility during the last 2 years. Since December 2009, I have used a walker to help me walk because I have chronic back conditions:
6 herniated discs
Degenerative Disc Disease
In my knees I now have Chronic Arthritis, and my feet have Plantar Fasciitus.
I've been walking using the walker frequently, so long as it is not raining out. I can't hold an umbrella and push the walker too :)
Now I have a wheelchair because I am losing the ability to walk. Up until now, the only exercise I have been permitted to do is walk, and I may lose that ability too.
I'm not sure what the future holds, but I know if I can get through all this and SO MUCH more not listed here, I know I will get through whatever may come my way.
Often I don't look at how strong I have been or how strong I have HAD to be to get through all of this ALONE. But by the grace of God I am still here and still moving to some degree, and therefore, there must be a purpose in it. And I will continue to fight the pain and continue to walk so long as my legs will hold me. And when I DO have to go into the wheelchair permanently, I am sure there will be ways for me to get some form of exercise. God is NOT without His plans and He won't let me falter.
I may never be a size 14 again, but I can be big, bold and beautiful, so long as I am eating healthy and doing everything I can physically, emotionally, spiritually etc., to live that healthy lifestyle.
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