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Cutting back on tracking. (with pictures from Fridays jog)

Saturday, November 09, 2013

A very stressful week is over. Thankfully I am doing better now! (Insomnia has not left the building completely, but hey, at least this means I have peace and quiet to write blogs in the middle of the night.)

I've honestly not been in a very good place emotionally this week. I've missed sleep, I've missed work, I've missed workouts, I've missed meals and at brief moments I've felt like I was about to lose control. I've been incredibly jumpy and at the same time dead tired. All very draining..

Ever since uncovering what triggered it all I've felt calmer. I will admit that I'm still a bit frazzled and rough around the edges, but I'm handling life well enough again. (I can deal so much better with my anxiety when my feelings makes sense to me!)

Tracking has been put on the back-burner throughout this week. Looking back I've realized that this might have been a blessing in disguise. I've come to grips with the fact that lately I've used tracking food as a way to control my emotions rather than my calories. Probably not the end of the world, I know there are worse strategies to use, still I'm thinking that this may be a good time to cut back on meticulous tracking for a little while.

(Don't worry about me. I'm not giving up on my healthy habits. There probably won't be any major changes to my eating habits or workout schedule. I just plan to spend less energy on monitoring and controlling. This will be good for me!)

So there is that out in the open. I'll still be around, I promise.

Dealing with all this made me cancel my planned jogs. On Friday I found I was in a better frame of mind again. By then winter had arrived, so I ended up having my first try at jogging on frosty sidewalks. Very slippery! Carefully tip-toeing was the only way to go. (I guess I really can't call what I did most of the time jogging)

The gravel paths through the forest and by the water was not that bad. I managed to get my pace up and my heart pumping up the hills, but even there I had to watch my step. A good thing all in all, as it really helped me stay grounded and in the moment, keeping my anxiety at bay.

Here are Fridays pictures.

A close-up on the frosty ground. I've always enjoyed the sound of walking on frozen leaves.

Catching my breath at the top of one hill, preparing for the next.

I reached the top!

During summer this little beach is filled with people. Friday I had it all to myself.

This picture was taken just a few moments after the last one. The fog came fast!

Had to watch my step when walking on this sidewalk. Still, I do find the frost to be very beautiful. I was losing the light at this point, so this picture is not really doing it justice.
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    Yes, they are great pics. It's cold here too but probably not as cold as there, but I still wouldn't job outdoors. Sorry you're not in a good place this week (albeit 5 days ago since you wrote it). I am not religious about tracking food anymore as I have not time. For my part, sometimes I think it's good to not be such a control freak as I know I can be.

    I think fishy has a problem with his swim bladder which is the organ that helps fish stay upright, maintain buoyancy and balance. Apparently it can get better, but clearly mine hasn't. I've put it back in the main pond now because of the temperature and I'm thinking it might suffocate in isolation because of the lack of oxygen in the water (there is no pump, fountain, plants, bubbles, etc). I've got to the point that, if it dies, it dies, but apparently fish can survive for ages just lying on the bottom of the pond.

    I feel much better for writing my blog and it's good to have encouragement to get off my ass and do things. Now, if I don't get on with my jobs this weekend, I'll be letting all my friends down as well as myself (and Zairul).

    Thank you
    1406 days ago
  • LUANN7
    thanks for sharing hope you have a better week
    1411 days ago
    Gorgeous! Thanks for sharing!
    1411 days ago
  • JULIA1154
    Thanks for sharing your absolutely gorgeous photos - they are quite refreshing! Tread carefully on those slick sidewalks!

    Hang in there and do what you can - anything is better than nothing, even if it's just adjusting your frame of mind.
    1411 days ago
    Wonderful pictures. I find I often have to leave something and come back to it with fresh eyes, so take the time you need. Great that you are jogging! I love to jog, just being outside and seeing the beauty is so good for the soul.
    1411 days ago
    Hey there, I can't imagine going through what you endure, but you are an absolute star emoticon in my eyes for pushing through with such a positive mindset. You clearly know yourself very well and what works and does not work for you. It certainly does help to know the cause of the symptoms because then you can sum it up in your mind and make some sense out of it, otherwise your thoughts could run wild in the wrong direction! I'm glad you got to the bottom of it this time. I have had a rest from tracking everything recently also, except for blogging and keeping up with SP friends. Those are stunning photos of such beautiful scenery in all its winter glory! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1411 days ago
    emoticon Great pics emoticon

    It's great that you are getting to know your triggers. Thinking of you and hoping for only emoticon experiences in your future. emoticon
    1411 days ago
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