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I'm here... trying to right myself.

Saturday, November 09, 2013

I'm sorry I haven't been around much. Some of it has been just life sort of stuff and some being I just haven't had the heart to log on. i've been pretty much wrapped up in my own little universe and haven't given thought to much else. I had a problem with my right shoulder that was triggered by doing a lot of over head work and also a lot of tedious cable stripping. the result was about 36 hours of searing pain that didn't let up. On top of other problems, this was the Coup-De-Grace to my workout efforts., just after I was starting to build momentum.

I saw a doctor Friday, had X-rays taken and will know more later. I have a pre-existing injury to my shoulder from softball a number of years ago where I swung too hard and really nutzed up my shoulder. It has always been a thorn in my side but this was over the top and came at a bad time. The inflammation pinched a nerve which explains the level of pain that would not subside.

The prescription is rest, ice, and ibuprofen.. So far this has worked well and it feels much better except for a nagging ache but i can live with that. I was also informed by the doctor that we may need to take it to the next level and get an MRI and physical therapy to really address the problem as well as assess the situation.

I'm all for it. I'm tired of dealing with it.

This whole episode has left me feeling like my warranty has expired along with the stark realization that I am not bullet proof any more.

Kind of a hard turn to go from epic to this in jut a few short months but it is what it is.

The other difficult part is that I have learned many bad habits over the years that i have been able to train hard and burn tons of calories. I have learned to take take liberties without consequence due to the fact that it was offset by my workouts, thus striking a happy balance.

If you are familiar with Looney Tunes, Foghorn Leghorn and the Dog is the perfect example of what I am talking about..

For those not familiar, here is a pictorial....

Foghorn Leghorn is a barnyard rooster that loves to harass the dog any chance he can get...

favorite trick is to come up and spank the dog then run to the edge of the leash limit where he cant be touched....

Dog runs to end of leash limit and chokes, hangs himself, or just gets frustrated at his inability to exact proper retribution...

but once in a while the cocky rooster gets clobbered when the dog gets out of his leash or gets a longer one....

OWNED! - Dog delivers nasty surprise to the rooster...

That is a pictorial description of the sloppy habits that I have learned over the last several years of training. Without realizing it, I have learned exactly what I can get away with or where the "leash limit" is so I will unconsciously come up, "pound the dog" (or eat the pizza) then run away knowing that it cant get me because of the sheer number of calories burned in my workouts and it worked :)

Well all of that is over. I am no longer shielded from folly by sheer intensity any longer. I've been owned a few times on the scale but not too badly. Just enough to realize that I am no longer calorically bullet proof.

Anyway, I am trying to get back to old fashioned tracking and operating within my new range of limitations.

What has ALWAYS worked for me in the past is to sit down and clearly identify those things that I CAN do within my current situation and then go after them. Nothing triggers depression faster than to feel like your time is wasted on things that do not move you closer to what you value most, where the clock and the compass are misaligned.

When I identify what I CAN do and accept the parameters that I have to operate under and understand that they are beyond my control, then I can focus on what IS under my control. When I do that, I have my power back. When I don't do that, I am an aimless victim.

I didn't get to where I am at by wandering in circles. Neither shall allow myself to be dictated to by circumstance lest I become a habitual whiner and professional sympathy monger.

Its one thing to take a tumble, it's quite another to feed off the sympathy of others and live in a perpetual state of boo hoo.

I'll take progress thank you, no matter how the package is delivered
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    Get the MRI and find out what is really wrong.....
    Suffered for 3+ years with RotatorCuff tear, torn labrum and calcium deposits, restricted my movements and finally had had enough as I wasn't sleeping through the night without pain (pain is worse at night!)
    Surgery was simple, Was driving in a week, at work in 1.5 weeks and physical therapy was a cinch.....felt better immediately, but the caution is to not OVERDO it!
    Give yourself some time, keep up with the ice and ibuprofen---daily!
    Don't suffer.....
    984 days ago
  • v GEORGE815
    Love those Foghorn and Leghorn cartoons.
    984 days ago
  • v _RAEVEN_
    You're doing great. Its so hard to stay on track or be dedicated after an injury. Be proud of youself!!! emoticon
    984 days ago
  • v GREYFOX2343
    Adapt and Overcome
    985 days ago
    I liked your analogy with the cartoon. I remember watching that as a kid so it brought back memories.

    Keep your chin up... this step in your journey will only make you stronger!
    987 days ago
    Injuries suck; there is no getting around that. Adapt and move on - and it seems like you already have a plan in place. More power to you!
    987 days ago
  • v MINNA72
    Good blog, Robert. Good for you for keeping it real!
    Wish you all the best with the shoulder.
    987 days ago
  • v HDHAWK
    Great blog. I can relate to a lot of what you wrote. I was in great shape, then let life get in the way and gained it all back, plus more. I've struggled for a couple of years to be consistent again with little to show for it. Just when I was trying to get back to working out I had an accident. I'm going to the chiropractor tomorrow to see about my shoulder too. I want to get back to using my kettlebells, but not until I can lift my arm better and without pain. Good luck to you. You've got a plan in place that will work.
    987 days ago
  • v TIME-4-TINA
    I say, I say, Robert, you can do it!
    987 days ago
    You will meet and beat this new challenge. The old way of doing things is changing and you will no doubt find a way to succeed! emoticon emoticon
    987 days ago
    Sounds like you are playing the hand you've been dealt. And thats good. emoticon
    988 days ago
  • v NAYNAY69
    Chin up! This too shall pass and you will find your way around it until it does emoticon

    988 days ago
    Progress is a wonderful thing! Taking two steps forward and one step back is still moving in a forward motion.
    988 days ago
    First off, it's great to see you back! Second, don't be sorry for not being here. Third, I love that you've already identified what you need to do to get back on track; this WILL work for you, because you are simply incapable of giving up :)

    Go get 'em Robert - I know you can!!!
    988 days ago
    Stop, assess new environment, find a solution ... apply!
    I think you understand that concept clearly!
    Get back on your horse!
    988 days ago
  • v BABYSTEPS123
    Very insightful! I see myself in many of your comments. Important lessons to be learned here as we learn to adjust and adapt to a new reality, whether temporary or long-term.

    Hope your shoulder heals quickly!
    989 days ago
    I like your new pic.
    989 days ago
    It's a good thing in life to learn ones limitations as well as abilities.
    989 days ago
  • v DALID414
    Good luck with the MRI
    989 days ago
    Awesome blog. I hope you heal quickly!

    I really like your finding the end of the leash analogy. I think that's where I've been as pounds have started to creep back on, and I see red flags everywhere, hear alarm bells, whistles, etc... need to get back to basics and focus on what I CAN do.

    Thank you, yet again, for sharing, and inspiring!!
    989 days ago
    Yup. The core realization that led me to take the weight off and keep it off was simply to accept the truth of an adage I'd heard for years: "You can't out-train a crappy diet."

    That's simplistic, but it's an important concept. I could work my way down almost to the top of healthy BMI range without paying attention to what I ate; but to achieve a healthy weight, I had to track and control. A disgusting truth, to be sure; but one that I had to deal with.

    The second truth that I found later is, when injury prevents me from doing as much exercise as I'd like, I need to eat less. How much less is variable depending on how much less I'm doing, and the process of quantifying how much is an exercise in trial and error; but it can be done.

    So . . . your shoulder won't let you be an epic triathlete right now. Will it let your run? That might not be as much fun for you as running and biking and swimming, but it sure beats sitting on the couch and feeling sorry for yourself.

    Meanwhile, you're getting medical advice for helping the shoulder get better. You will come back from this. It won't take forever. It will only SEEM like it's taking forever while the journey is in progress.

    And if your doctor says to go to physical therapy, go to physical therapy. It can be a game changer in recovering from injury. Starting PT was probably the hardest decision I made in 2013, and it was absolutely the best thing I could have done for myself when injured.
    989 days ago
  • v LINDAK25
    It's so discouraging to have an injury. You're right--focus on where you need to go and how to get there. Physical therapy will be a big help and you'll be able to ask what you can and can't do so you'll understand your limitations. Hope that shoulder gets better soon.
    989 days ago
    I learned, the hard way, that you can't work off a bad diet. I ran marathons for years, and ate with abandon, thinking much the same as you....."I'll just burn it off on my long run!"

    I had surgery in 2010 that put a stop to my running. During recovery I joined SP, because I knew that sitting around recovering would just pack on the pounds. I got smart about food & diet, then picked up cycling to go low impact.

    The best thing I did was to start really helped me pack on muscle & burn fat, even after major hip surgery. See if your shoulder will allow you to do squats, lunges, deadlifts, etc.

    Keep at it, brother!
    989 days ago
  • v JOE14250
    daily monitoring immediate retooling! you are strong Robert!
    989 days ago
    You have done so well.I feel for you as I have had multiple arm and elb emoticon ow surgeries and now have a frozen shoulder.Alot of runners who burn out take up the spin bike.Try something different. emoticon
    989 days ago
  • v COO_KIE
    989 days ago
    May not be fair, but it's the hand we're dealt. YOU, Sir Robert, are a bright and tough, and determined fella, and YOU will see this through to the other side. I've never perceived you as a whiner... but know how it "feels" like one is whining when really only stating the facts.

    Hang in... and gotta love ol' Foghorn, I say, Foghorn Leghorn, boy!

    989 days ago
    And with these changes come new possibilities...
    989 days ago
    Wishing you the best. I've had some similar stark realizations this year as well. Not an easy thing at all.
    989 days ago
    Love the cartoons! I can so identify with the struggle you're going through now, and hope you can find some form of exercise that your body can handle. It's weird how these things happen sometimes---just yesterday I posted my first "whining" blog about my allergies (which keep me inside a lot). I generally am very upbeat and positive. Then today I posted one about how everybody struggles with something, but we all manage to find ways to move on and accomplish our goals, and how I've been so motivated with so many stories on this SP site!! So continue on, my friend. It's okay to "lament" for a little while, then count your blessings and move on to your next phase of life. Hoping for a speedy recovery for you. emoticon
    989 days ago
  • v IMSMILEY88
    I knew from my journey that some times are easier and some times are harder. Sometimes we can practically cruise along, and other times it is a day by day, maybe minute by minute, battle. I know you can get through this and back on track! Best wishes!
    989 days ago
    Love the visual!! I used to watch Foghorn all the time too...

    Keep the faith! You know what works and I know you can do this. Hope all works out well with your shoulder. I've had a nagging injury from high school myself so I have deep sympathy with you there!

    Sending lots of happy thoughts and wishes for speedy recovery your way!

    PS - None of us are bullet proof...
    989 days ago
    It may take some time, but you'll find your new groove. Are you up for a step challenge? emoticon I'm game.
    989 days ago
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