Saturday, November 09, 2013
Figured I should post something since I haven't done a blog entry in a while. This last week has been pretty awesome actually. Monday was a little rough, but I've been tracking and staying accountable since Tuesday. I've been under 2,000 calories every day, and got over 30 mins of cardio Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. Took a break last night, but am planning on hitting the gym tonight again. I'm feeling much better emotionally too. I was having quite the rough patch of self hatred last week. I'm going to Cuba in just over a week, and really wanted to be a lot fitter before I left. But I'm human, I struggled, and I think I put too much pressure on myself to lose weight. I think I've accepted that not many changes in my body will happen in the next week, but I can stay on track and do my best to eat as healthy as I can to at least give myself a bit of an accomplishment before I go. I'm pretty bad for playing the "shoulda, coulda, woulda" game. Of course there are quite a few things that I should have done and could have done and would have done, if only I....
I'm focusing on not living in the past and forgiving myself for the mistakes I might have made in the past. I just have to keep going, and learn to love myself as I am no matter what. So what if I'm worse off and heavier than I was at the beginning of the year. So what if there were times when it seemed like I didn't make one healthy choice for an entire week or more. SO WHAT! It's in the past, I can't change what I've done, so I need to move on and do my best to stop this vicious cycle in it's track. I'm tired of feeling bad about myself and I'm tired of bullying and beating myself up about EVERYTHING. I am proud of myself and how well I've done the last few days. I feel it's a great start to a great streak of health for me.
Now I am planning/expecting there to be a bit of a hard time getting back on track when I get home from my trip, but I am going to do my best to get right back on the health wagon as soon as my feet touch Canadian soil again. Not that I'm going to go CRAZY while I'm away, but I know there will be A LOT more alcohol consumed than what I'm used to, and some meals will be out of my control. I'm going to make the best of the situation, enjoy the beach, and enjoy a stress free week of relaxation, good friends, and a MUCH deserved vacation.