Saturday, November 09, 2013
He poured me a glass of chardonnay and set it next to me on my desk. And I took it.
As you are aware, I've been in a cold war with the hubby since Thursday. It is finally resolved but at what cost? Yesterday started off pretty good. I woke up and left the house to see my parents. They are currently redecorating the house again and I helped paint a wall. Then after a cup of tea we went shopping. I kinda love shopping again. First we went to the craft store and after walking the entire thing I finally found the transfer paper for my Catching Fire shirt. It's not cheap. My mom hinted that a sewing machine would be a great Christmas present. I love it when people just tell me what they want.
Then she took me to hell. At least close to it. She mentioned a store that she wanted to see all the way out in the part of town that isn't the greatest. I drove over there and almost didn't get out of the car. The store is called Dirt Cheap and makes Goodwill look like Bloomingdale's. I've never seen a store so dirty, so desolate, so freaking creepy. I felt like I was going to get knifed, robbed, and have my organs stolen on aisle 3. Now, my family was very poor when we immigrated and for years all we could afford to wear was things from thrift stores, donations, and garage sale finds. My toys were things we found in drainage areas that kids lost. This was far worse. I saw the plastic bin of used makeup pencils and I almost threw up. We were in the store maybe 2 minutes before I needed to leave.
After that I went home. I sat there a while trying to decide what I wanted to do. I finally decided to break out the old Wii Fit from 2011. It took a while to find the cords and the little board icon said I hadn't logged in for 1300 days. I got weighed and apparently lost 20.4 lbs since the last time I used this thing. Scale was a few pounds off and said I was at 137. Then I thought about it and who the hell cares?! It's a few freaking pounds. I was happy with anything under 150. Weight and the number cannot define who I am forever.
I played Wii Resort for about an hour. I beat my old bowling record. I viciously attacked opponents in the Sword fighting. Table tennis brings the anger in me. And perhaps golf was never for me.
Then I got tired and surfed around for a bit. At about 3:30 I found a cheesy romance on Netflix and watched a portion while walking on the treadmill. I managed an hour of walking. Then I ate dinner (squash) and decided to start trying to get into the Vampire Diaries once again.
7:30 PM -- The hubby came into the room and set down the full wine glass in front of me. It seemed like a peace offering because for the last 7 years of our relationship wine fixed everything. I thought about it. Then I took it and sipped. It wasn't very good. I don't hate chardonnay but I much prefer a pinot grigio. And then we were those old people again. By the 2nd glass we were watching Supernatural on the couch and laughing. He was eating ice cream out of the tub and I was not eating anything because I don't keep any food except squash in the house. I was drinking though. Glass 3 already had me completely drunk. We talked and talked. It seemed like we hadn't talked in months and maybe we really haven't. Glass 4 finished the bottle and I fell asleep watching Diners, Drive Ins, and Dives. I love that show. He told me that he made plans with friends and now EVERY Sunday starting next week.. I get the entire day alone.
I don't regret yesterday. The cost of repairing my relationship turned out to be a 500 calorie bottle of wine. I don't feel as hung over this morning because I didn't eat off plan foods. Soon I will get dressed and meet up with my friend at the Farmer's Market. The Texas trip plans have changed again. I'm getting whiplash from all these changes. Now my brother doesn't want to go to the festival. So as of right now.. my parents are driving today and going to the festival Sunday. My brother and I are staying here and driving to Texas Monday morning and back the same afternoon.
And I need to work off that bottle of wine.