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Friday, November 08, 2013

Hello Sparkpeoples!

I hope all is well and I have been away for way to long. i had a really scary moment on Monday and ended up in the hospital for a couple of days. That was the first time in life that I really was scared of what my body was doing and this time. I am here at SP for an entirely different reason. I can't allow my body to go to that place again. I have to listen to it. So, here we go on another leg of my journey together again! I have managed to gain about 34 lbs since last March. How does one do that?? Well, I just sort of gave up. Shrugged off the importance and did what I felt like doing not what i needed to do. Well, that stops now!

I have offically gotten rid of all caffine so, I am hoping that helps with some of the anxiety of everything. Smaller meals and coping with other blood pressure and etc. I NEVER want to feel that way again and I am still shaken by it.

Everything now, even small pangs of pain, freaks me out (which triggers anxiety) and I want to know if that is normal compared to other things now, Well, maybe a week ago, I would of just dismissed it for an everyday thing.

The first place that I thought of for support was SP. Its always in the back of my mind. So, where I am not going to use it this time for counting every calorie and fitness calorie but, I am going to use it to check myself , communicate and for support. I also am feeling that through those channels losing weight will be a benefit. :)

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    One gains it back like you said by shrugging it off. Trust me I know!! I gained 40lbs back from June of last year to November of this year. Went to the Dr yesterday for the annual check up & he said that there are hints of sleep apnea in my lab work.

    WHAT??? Sleep apnea. Oh no, I don't think so!! Only thing is that lab work doesn't lie. So here I am again on a journey to lose the weight I gained back plus some additional weight that I need to lose.

    I'm ready this time around. I definitely don't want to end up with a CPAP machine strapped to my face at night to make sure I don't stop breathing at night. Yikes!!

    Eye opener?? I'd say so.

    Good Luck on your journey! I'm here for support if you ever need it. emoticon
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