Friday, November 08, 2013
just not a lot to say.
I seem to have found the balance point again, for now. And feel abashed over my panic during the slide and recovery. It *is* after all, a part of life's process for me to have good and bad times. But every time I have one of those tough patches... it scares me.
The big fear is that I'll end up in one of those multi-year relapses.
OA talks about insanity. Step 2 is coming to believe that a power greater than ourselves can restore us to sanity. Slipping from abstinence brings an almost immediate "insanity". One that threatens my recovery.
I intellectually know this. Crawling back out of the ditch, finding the abstinence again... is a blessing and a grace, and I Thank my Higher Power for it. Because it takes a power greater than the disease to combat it... to get the motivation back.
LIFE is good. Live it one day, one decision at a time! Because you're worth it. And... it works when you work it (notice I didn't say "if")!