Thursday, November 07, 2013
I was going through pictures today and came across the ones in this post. This first picture is from my honeymoon in 2004. I am between 210 and 225 pounds. I actually do not know excactly because I avoided scales. This was before I found running. In fact, it is several years before I started working on developing a healthy lifestyle and found running. I look at this picture and it makes me sad because I know that girl was not happy. Here I was on my honeymoon with the love of my life and best friend and I kept thinking about how I looked and what people might be saying (or thinking)…including my new husband. Don’t get me wrong, I did enjoy spending time with my new husband and visiting the island but I struggled with just letting go and completely enjoying myself because of my own insecurities.
This second picture was from The Human Race 10K in August 2008. I am about 158 pounds. This was approximately a year and a half after I started getting “serious” about my running. I use the word “serious” loosely in that I ran a couple times a week (usually around 3 miles with a couple longer runs no more than 6 miles thrown in the mix) but I was not consistent. Between 2004 and 2008, I learned a lot about myself and gained a lot more confidence. I definitely enjoyed life a lot more and had learned a lot of things about myself and what I was capable of. The lifestyle that I was developing helped me when I became pregnant in 2011.
This third picture was from the Jog’r Egg Nog’r 5K in December 2011. I was about 195 pounds. This race was a milestone for me because my baby boy was born in October and I had only been released by my doctor to run for 3 weeks. I had had a relatively healthy pregnancy. I ran and biked until it was uncomfortable and then I walked. By the end of the pregnancy, I had gained about 35 pounds. After AMC was born, I was excited to get back to my running and back down to my pre preggo weight. This race marked the beginning of that journey.
This last picture was from my sister-in-law’s wedding in September 2013. I am 164 pounds. Almost 2 years to the day of my son being born, I was finally at my pre-preggo weight. While it may have taken me 2 years and several trips to my doctor to get my thyroid medicine back to the correct levels, I DID drop those 35 pounds because I did not give up and kept putting one foot in front of the other. I have become serious (I didn’t use quotes this time!) about my running and have accomplished some amazing milestones. I still have about 15-20 more pounds that I would like to lose but I do not focus as much on that number as I do the numbers on my watch when I am finished with a run. I have come a long way from that timid girl with all those insecurities. Do I still have some? Sure I do, but they do not consume me as much as they did! I am definitely healthier and much happier.