I came in to work this morning to find an email from my boss to the team scheduling a very quick meeting in the middle of the day. These are never good meetings - it's always bad news when an almost last-minute meeting is called with no hint about purpose. I get in early, so I had hours to think about what it could be and get anxious. (I can't help it - all the tricks in the book fail me).
The last time we had a meeting like this, it was to announce that our General Counsel was being laid off. I cried privately later. So I worried that it might be our current GC or my boss or the whole team or me or...that mental hamster was working overtime even while I kept busy on a time-critical project.
I was so anxious, I almost felt ill and I promised that if the worst things I could think of were not true, I would give up diet soda and sugar for two months.
It turns out that one of our team members, an attorney, has given notice and will be gone at the end of the month. That's bad for us, it may be good for him (we have not talked) but it is in no way as bad as I feared. SO - I have a promise to keep!
The announcement was during lunch hour so, afterwards, I walked with another member of the team to the cafe. We get free drinks and free fruit, so that's what I head for. I did not bring my soda glass, so I grabbed a disposable cup when we got there. I came thisclosetofilling it with soda before I caught myself! Habit...It would have been really bad to break that promise at the first opportunity!
Yes, I know - the holidays with the sugar-laden treats are looming and off-schedules usually mean more soda. But I can do this! It will ultimately be a very good thing for me, albeit a challenge.
I anticipate lots of replies about drinking water. I do that, but I still get caffeine headaches, so this will be a real challenge for me.
I am sad he is leaving, but I am relieved beyond measure that the bad news was not worse! Going without in appreciation for that is a small price to pay!