Thursday, November 07, 2013
Hopefully my possibly good news turns into actually good news.
I am teaching two more sections of Intro Biology at Lindenwood next year, and today I started talking with another small college called McKendree to teach Chemistry. One would be a General Chemistry lab and one would be an Organic Chemistry lab *gasp*! Someoneís gonna need to relearn Organic ASAP! Then in addition they want me to maybe teach the associated Organic class Ė again *eeeeep*! It conflicts with my Biology classes though, so until I find out if they can move it, I donít know if I will teach it.
So instead of only teaching one class like I am this semester for $800 a month *sigh*, I would be making $1600 at Lindenwood + whatever at McKendree = I can finally pay my bills and work on all of the credit card debt Iíve managed to get myself into! I hate not being able to take care of myself financially, it just makes you feel like a worthless adult when you canít afford to move out on your own. Grad school definitely put me financially behind my friends. I had a few weak moments this month where friends were posting about their brand new cars or giant new homes on Facebook, and it was a rough reality check for me. I do not care about that stuff. I donít need a new car or a giant house, heck its not even something I would want to brag about ever on FB, but thereís always a voice in the back of your head telling you that you arenít keeping up with the Joneses.
Fitness wise I havenít had any excuses not to work out. Iíve been averaging 4 days a week at the gym for good cardio sessions and strength training, and still swimming at least one day a week. Iíve also tried to do more walking during the day and less sitting around.
Food wise I suck, lol. I am trying to do everything right in the gym but then I sabotage myself in the kitchen. PMS + Halloween = I ate a lot of candy bars. Iím not even going to lie about it. I ate A LOT of them. But Iím not going to freak out about it Ė Iím moving past it and moving on.
I took my measurements yesterday. I am definitely a pear! 36Ē bust, 31Ē natural waist, 35Ē waist where my jeans sit aaaaaaand 45Ē hips. Iíve got a ghetto booty and I know it! Working out in the gym has made it rise up and get rounder. So even though Iím still having issues with jeans not fitting like they used to, its for different reasons.
I have a bicep now too! Iíve learned more of the machines in the gym so I now have a leg day and an arm day Ė and I learned swimming breaststroke after arm day is punishment! Leg day is helping the booty and my thighs feel stronger. Oddly enough my ankles have gotten skinny. Even at 300# I didnít really have cankles since my calf muscles are really large, but now my ankles are getting all tendony and skinny. I wish it was my waist that was shrinking but I guess we canít be picky, lol.
I somehow have just been avoiding the scale. Iím sticking to avoiding it for awhile I think. I donít need it to tell me that Iím not doing well with weightloss. Iím getting more muscle so I just donít want to be discouraged that Iím still over 190 at this point.
So goals for November Ė get the food under better control and learn Organic chemistry!