Tuesday, November 05, 2013
Since publicly admitting my struggle with food and sugar a few days ago, I feel as though a monstrous weight has been lifted. I have moments of fragility and temptation, but now know I CAN control my behaviors. Control is a choice just as giving in is a choice.
The past two days have been hectic. I have planned meals and snacks in advance; accounting for every potential eventuality and leaving nothing to chance/no potential for binge eating. Drastically cutting refined sugar from my diet has made it possible to accurately assess hunger vs. thirst. In the midst of a few stressful situations, I battled the temptation of a binge, but thought of how good I'd feel if I just waited it out and 'treated' myself with something other than food. It sounds a bit lame, but I am proud of myself for going to the grocery store and only buying what was on the list. (No secret food!) it's been so long since I've done that. Also, while on the road for work this week I've not stopped for coffee or secret fast food meals.
Positive self-talk has been part of my success this week. I'm constantly reminding myself of how hard I'm working and how much I want to be free of food. I've started my exercise plan this week; actually entering it as a calendar item to be sure I keep the appointment with myself.
Two things I'd like to share with anyone reading this:
1.) Be kind to yourself, but don't enable your bad behavior.
2.) I'm not sure who said this first, but "when you fail to plan, you plan to fail". Take the time to think through what you need in terms of food & exercise and plan for it.
Have a beautiful, blessed week!