Tuesday, November 05, 2013
I faithfully log onto Sparkpeople.com everyday. I click for my daily Sparkpoints. I read the articles to get the points. I log my water and exercise so I get more points. I strive to reach 25 points so I can get the bonus points. But.....that is all I do. I lurk. I try to get as many points but I lurk. Every Monday I seem to start all over again with my eating plan for the week. And I started going to Weight Watchers once again after not going and cancelling my membership. But...I don't do much more. Re-reading my blog posts that I periodically have posted since 2009 it seems to be a common theme. Stopping and re-starting. Stopping yet again when things got tough and then re-starting when I again thought I could do this. Ugh!!
I don't give myself enough credit. Looking at my weight graph over the past years I see where I gained most of the 50 pounds back. I see where since then I have basically stayed the same. I see that over this past year I have only gained 3 pounds which is a miracle since I am a stress eater.
I have seen alot of stress this past year...my oldest dog at the age of 13 passed away last December. My mother was diagnosed with breast cancer in March. She had a mastectomy in May. Then in August she had a small stroke. My father also has had his ups and downs with his health is currently in the hospital because of a blood infection and complications from diabetes. Being the stress eater I have eaten without thought through it all. Yet...I have only gained 3 pounds. Ya it is a gain but it is only 3 pounds.
So I am not posting another blog about I am starting again and I will do blah, blah, blah and stick to this and do that and so on and so on. But I am posting to say.... I am still here and every day I will wake up and do the best I can.