Lately, I am always tired. I just feel like I dont sleep very well at nights. Very restless, waking up constantly. I bought a new alarm clock a few weeks ago that projects the time onto the ceiling so I dont even have to turn and look at the clock to see what time it is when I wake up - usually around midnight, if I go to sleep around 9pm. And again around 3am. Blech. I've been taking OTC sleeping pills (generic for unisom) on nights where I'm really struggling and sometimes that doesnt help. I even worked out yesterday so I figured my body would be tired. I was tired. I am just not getting the kind of stress-free sleep that I think I really, really need.
I mentioned it at therapy yesterday - this is recurring for me. I will be thinking (obsessing) over something - anything - and it makes it so much harder to fall asleep. I think my therapy has helped me in some ways to not feel like I MUST be the hero for my clients and make everything in their lives better. I am starting to have a more realistic, healthy view of my role, which is extremely important in managing my work stress. Now I just want to learn how to not be so obsessive. Especially when it affects my sleep. But I think that might me where my therapy takes me next so hopefully I can get some relief there, too.
Like I mentioned early - I worked out yesterday! In fact, I ended my 1.5 month running hiatus!
Its been really cold lately - around the 30s and expecting snow today. I opted to run on the treadmill. On top of the cold weather, its also extremely windy (my wreath flew off my door the other day!) so I was not going to break the running hiatus with a windy, cold run. The treadmill was definitely a much better option. I did a 5 min walking warm-up, and then run/walk intervals for 2 miles. 4:1 were my intervals. My avg pace was 12:30 per mile, so nice and slow and comfortable. I felt like I could have kept going with my intervals, but I hadnt run in 1.5 months so I wanted to take it easy. After finishing 2 miles, I then walked 1 more mile on a 5% incline for a total of 3 miles yesterday in 42 minutes. My thighs were shaking! But it felt great and sweaty. And most of all, it was pain-free! Apparently, listening to my body when I started feeling pain and taking some rest and doing leg ST really made a difference.
Tonight I have my hip hop dance class - our teacher is out tonight so we'll be having a sub so who knows what we'll end up doing.
The food I cooked over the weekend has been delicious. I've been feeling full and satisfied, snacking less, and no bloating or gas which is a nice change. I am already looking at recipes to cook for next week, and I found a recipe online for gluten free, dairy free chocolate oatmeal pancakes, which I am excited to make this weekend!
I need to finish my powerpoint slides for tomorrow's presentation. So that's what I'll be focusing on today. Tomorrow I have a presentation in the morning at the Air Force Academy, and then the afternoon I have my GI follow-up appt so I think I will be out of the office the entire day. I think we have a holiday next Monday too, so at least a 3-day weekend will be nice, and hopefully help me catch up on some restful sleep!