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In Pain and Depressed

Monday, November 04, 2013

Within the past few months my arthritis has started getting worse. At the end of the day when I get home from work, (no matter what shoes I wear) I can barely walk because my feet hurt so bad and my legs feel like lead. My hands are changing too, fingers are turning. The dr. did blood work and found out a month ago that my thyroid is low, so I'm on ANOTHER medicine. I feel I am in limbo, and sinking fast. I have osteoarthritis and fibromyalgia, but I am afraid of getting Rheumatoid Arthritis. I watched my mom suffer with it for over 20 years.

Last week I weighed in at 179.2 lbs. I have gained about 15 lbs. since spring. I have absolutely NO willpower. Don't exercise anymore, except for walking Poppet around the block. I have to wonder if my feet and legs are hurting because I weigh so much now. I HAVE NEVER WEIGHED AS MUCH AS I DO NOW! I am so depressed.

I know how to get it off. I've been dieting since I was 10 years old. Know all the diets in the book. Know too much about diets. Know too much about how many calories are in foods. It's like I am rebelling against sooooo many years of watching what I ate, that I just can't face it anymore.

Today I am going to do some upper body exercises. I once read one of IDNYGIRL's blogs about exercise and do what exercise you can. I'm going to try taking her advice. Baby steps I guess.

I guess I'm just rambling.

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MT-MOONCHASER 11/10/2013 2:54PM

    I, too, have been gaining back weight. I am up about 10 pounds from my lowest and have been noticing some pain in my knees when I do stairs. I live in a two-level house and bedroom and bath are upstairs so there is no way to cut out doing stairs!

When I first started Spark I had been having knee pain and after I lost about 5 pounds it pretty much went away, so I have to think that the weight gain was a big part of the onset of the pain in my case.

I am starting to get back into the Spark groove and have been doing fairly well most days until I get home from work. Then I tend to just grab the easiest thing to snack on while I get my supper ready. Often the snack choices and supper choices are not very good since I didn't plan ahead and have healthy choices picked out or prepared.

I feel that planning will be the key to my success.

I have been doing Leslie Sansone's Walk Away the Pounds DVD's since there is not a gym close by and the conditions for outside exercise are pretty marginal at best. I was able to do some outside walking this summer. Right now I have a cardio streak of at least 10 minutes a day going -- I'm at 312 days.

Do what you can. Keep this in mind --- "Baby steps. Leaping in wears you out. Then you quit." ~Indygirl

You might check out her Spark Team --

She is quite inspiring.

Good luck!


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MARTHA-ANN 11/6/2013 10:59AM

    Hi, nice to see you back.
Take things slowly and you'll get there.

I have osteo and psoriatic arthritis in my knee and ankle, on top of that I have a recently broken kneecap do Spark chair exercises and try to keep walking so my knee doestn't stiffen.
I had x-rays and an MRI scan last week to see if I need a new knee or if it can be repaired but I was recently diagnosed as being allergic to artificial sweeteners and over the past seven weeks, since I've been off them, the diffierence in energy levels, pain etc. is fantastic. I feel loads better, stronger and so energised and sleep much better than I have for years too.

Hang on in there emoticon

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LEANJEAN6 11/6/2013 8:24AM

    No---You're not just rambling---I've been there---The thyroid being low will give you sore legs----good thing they treated that--also will make you depressed--also the Fibro----but----you can move a bit-----move more when you feel better---I have a low thyroid too----had it several yrs---am on the verge of diabetes---
I haven't seen you on here in ages, so it's good to see you now.
Why don't you stop looking at this as a diet--just a healthy way to live---
You will feel better--It took me a couple yrs to crawl out of the doldrums when I had thyroid----You can feel better --it just takes a wee time!-Lynda

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CAKAROO 11/5/2013 5:49AM

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PUNCHILOUIE 11/4/2013 12:37PM

    give yourself a rest from diets, think in terms of a new lifestyle, like exercising more, one more block, one more different thing from your routine, think in terms of what would you do if you were in a different situation? what do you want to do, a new hobby, a new book, a new dress, something to spark you? talk to your doctor, be ask tobe referred to a cognitive therapist, we all need help once in a while, reach for that help!!!Take care!

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CHOCOHOLIC2276 11/4/2013 12:32PM

    I'm sorry you're in pain. Try to do the chair exercises. Build up slowly and pat yourself on the back for every good step. This isn't a race, go at your pace and you'll get back to a healthier you. Hopefully the weight loss will ease the pain too....

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SKINNYSTRUMMER 11/4/2013 11:53AM

    I started 'the Plan' in September. I hear of it helping arthritis. I feel a lot stronger and am sleeping better then I have in years, which has define it'll helped me with depression.

Hang in there!

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PRNCSCUP1-2FULL 11/4/2013 11:43AM

    Try some of SP's chair exercises. They have an ab workout, an arm workout and a cardio workout all done from a chair! Move what you can. I have OA and know it hurts to move, but moving also makes it better in the end! Also, has a couple chair workouts. I've been depressed too and really do find that exercise helps my mood too! I wish you success in overcoming this depression and a significant decrease in your pain!

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ENG_TV 11/4/2013 10:54AM

    Any movement is good, and often those little changes for a short time help ease the pain. It sure does work for the spirit. We're here to encourage you. Hugs.

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SAMMIESMOM13 11/4/2013 10:18AM

    I know what you mean about being tired of watching what you eat all the time and counting calories. It does get so tiring, and then with pain and health issues it's just that much worse. Can you maybe do some chair type exercises added to your walk, even while you're watching tv or something? Maybe lift soup cans during each commercial? Something like that. Just slowly work into adding more, try and make it easy? I'll say some prayers for you too. God bless.

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1CRAZYDOG 11/4/2013 9:10AM

    (((((HUGS)))))) You're right about the weight for sure, because every 10 lb. of weight creates four times that weight per square inch on the knees . . . meaning OUCH with excess weight. Been there, done that. DEFINITELY do even 5 minutes of what you can and build. Just do something, as INDYGIRL advises. Wise words.

Have you considered it could be the foods you're eating that you're reacting to?

Google reactive foods. Might help.

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MJRVIC2000 11/4/2013 8:27AM

    Jesus said in Matt 11:28, "Come unto me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." God Bless YOU! Vic.

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