Monday, November 04, 2013
Within the past few months my arthritis has started getting worse. At the end of the day when I get home from work, (no matter what shoes I wear) I can barely walk because my feet hurt so bad and my legs feel like lead. My hands are changing too, fingers are turning. The dr. did blood work and found out a month ago that my thyroid is low, so I'm on ANOTHER medicine. I feel I am in limbo, and sinking fast. I have osteoarthritis and fibromyalgia, but I am afraid of getting Rheumatoid Arthritis. I watched my mom suffer with it for over 20 years.
Last week I weighed in at 179.2 lbs. I have gained about 15 lbs. since spring. I have absolutely NO willpower. Don't exercise anymore, except for walking Poppet around the block. I have to wonder if my feet and legs are hurting because I weigh so much now. I HAVE NEVER WEIGHED AS MUCH AS I DO NOW! I am so depressed.
I know how to get it off. I've been dieting since I was 10 years old. Know all the diets in the book. Know too much about diets. Know too much about how many calories are in foods. It's like I am rebelling against sooooo many years of watching what I ate, that I just can't face it anymore.
Today I am going to do some upper body exercises. I once read one of IDNYGIRL's blogs about exercise and do what exercise you can. I'm going to try taking her advice. Baby steps I guess.
I guess I'm just rambling.