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Sunday, November 03, 2013

Off the track doesn't even do justice to how far back I slid. I was feeling so much better with my 82 lb loss. I was moving, grooving, eating healthier and feeling so positive. Last November (2012) I broke. I was shields down in all my own joy and allowed external emotionally charged attacks in and allowed them to devastate me. I don't think at this point details are important publicly but I know what went wrong.
At any rate, here I am. I made it back. It's hard, humbling, and while I feel I would encourage anyone else to embrace the positive that they are starting over, I'm disappointed in myself for having to start over.
Of the 82 lbs I got rid of, I regained 64. Bright side; at least I didn't gain back more than I lost.
I recently got in with a hospital that has plans specific to low/no income patients and have been trying to get my health as a whole on track. Good news: no diabetes and no high blood pressure, bad news is high cholesterol. So just another reason to really get back on board.
I'm now "down" to one little boy that I watch but he's now 19 months old (WHERE DID THAT TIME GO??) and he's GO GO GO GO from the second he wakes up. I need to be able to keep up with him more than I've been able.

So, yeah. Here's me. Starting over. Remembering it IS doable. Trying to remember that I am worth the work.
Love and light to you all and all the best in your own journey.
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    1445 days ago
    Congratulation on your come back, if you did it before, you can do it again. Self motivation is a good thing and you have peoples that is pulling for you. I only been back a week and it's been the hardest week for me, I'm like the little engine that know he can...... emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon .
    1446 days ago
    emoticon That is wonderful that you are back. However, don't think of this as you failed and now your starting over. Think of it as starting where you left off. We all have moments in our life that can come in and drain us, but you are back and that is worth a 1,000 times of falling down! You will get there, and if you need anything let us know! Have a blessed day! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1446 days ago
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