Saturday, November 02, 2013
November 2nd 2013
I am ready to get back on track. I have been off focus far too long. Gained 20 pounds I suppose. I am not bringing the scale back into my life. I have a bad habit of getting caught up in the numbers. This time around I want to try not to get so dang obsessed and self-focused. It's time to finally find balance between healthy and fun. Perhaps the two will merge at some point. I know I need to begin tacking my calories again at some point so I will begin tracking in a couple weeks. For now I am going to get the dang wheat back out of my diet and get the sugar intake lower. I haven't binged in over three months and feel pretty well in hand there so it is going to be good to get some focus back.
The hardest part is going to be that feeling of being a failure. I feel ashamed of letting myself get this heavy again and have been telling myself that at least I'm not 300 again. These are lies that are not helping me get back to a realistic lifestyle. All in all, I have come a long way on my journey over the last three years. I will count the victories and use the stumbles as stepping stones...................
So, here I go!