Saturday, November 02, 2013
Okay, time to take stock. I apologize if this is a bit long. First of all, I have yet to do what I "said" I was going to do and I haven't hung my goals in the kitchen or my gym. Naughty! That will be taken care of post haste. In realizing that, I read through my goals and noticed that I have NOT been following through. I have to do yoga both today and tomorrow to meet that goal. Not a huge deal, but today may prove tough. The worst though is that I have NOT been drinking my water or eating quite like I should. Have I been horrible about it? No. But my 13yo asked me yesterday why it is that I have been working out for so long and I don't look more like the women I see on my body building sites, etc. What could I tell him? Well, I lack the discipline in myself that they have or I would. That's what it all boils down to for me, discipline. I haven't been very good with the candy, stupid holiday lol, and I have had a bite of this and a taste of that. Will this kill me? No, obviously not. But what it will do is cause my insulin to fluctuate, throw my body off in other areas, make me hungry when I shouldn't be or vice versa, COMPLETELY throw off my macros (as it isn't all about calories) and leave me with less improvements than I would have seen if I hadn't let it slide. What do I need to do, especially since I can't even tell you how many calories I have been consuming or how my macros look? LOG MY FOOD!!!! I need to "get back to my roots" and weigh and log everything that I am putting in my mouth. I need to have the visual motivation up in the rooms where I tend to show weakness. I need to be reminded of my goals BEFORE I put them on the back burner. Those are the things that I am going to be working on this weekend. I have to do a workout both today and tomorrow, as I chose sleep over my Friday workout, giving up my Sunday rest day. I am okay with that though. SLEEP IS NECESSARY! Next week is the last week of this cutting program and I really feel that I need to go into it hard. I really feel as if I need to push myself a little harder during the workouts and I need to be more disciplined with my food choices. I want to show that these three weeks were worth it. I am starting an ass-kicking program immediately after this is done to gain muscle. I need to prove to myself that it is going to be worth it, as well. I had this tattoo put on my fingers for a reason. I need to follow through. My ring finger says discipline. My middle finger says determination. Time to find my beast mode!