Friday, November 01, 2013
I heard someone say once that every negative feeling we have is based in fear. And in her meditations, on her inhales, she would breathe in a "good" word, i.e. strength, patience, focus, happiness, peace, etc. to encourage bringing that good thing into her life. But on the exhale, she would breathe out the word "fear" to release fear from her body. Fear of not being good enough, fear of what others think, fear of failing, fear of rejection, all of these things that were bringing negativity into her body.
Hopped back on my wagon recently, but the numbers (food log, scale, etc.) are showing that I'm not all the way back on the wagon. I may be dragging one foot behind or maybe only walking beside it, and not truly sitting in the driver's seat getting this thing going! And this morning I was thinking about why that was and I think it ties back to fear. I'm afraid of doing a workout that hurts. I'm afraid of injuring myself while doing a new workout. I'm afraid of not getting this right again and being right back here at some point, whether it's six months, a year or ten years down the road. I'm afraid of failure. I'm afraid of not getting support from people around me. I'm afraid of the challenge and not being able to rise to meet and conquer the challenge.
But the point of exercise is not to go out and be comfortable for a half hour each day. It's to challenge my body in ways I didn't think I could handle and then truly celebrating when I'm able to do more each day than I could do the day before. So today, I'm going to work on that one fear. I'll let that one go for today. I may fall over in a yoga position. I may have to alter an exercise or take a quick break, but I don't have to stop and I don't have to quit.
I have other fears to work on getting rid of, but today's fear I'm letting go.