Thursday, October 31, 2013
"We are not permitted to choose the frame of our destiny. But what we put into it is ours." -Dag Hammarskj÷ld
I woke up this morning after another night of binging and I had two choices. I could either panic, get really mad at myself, be in a state of anxiety and self loathing all day (my default reaction after a binge), or I could take a deep breath and change my perspective.
Renee Stephens of Inside Out Weight Loss always says, "there is no such thing as failur, only feedback." She tells us to think of slip ups as learning opportunities and a chance to grow. I fully agree with her. And I'm taking these past weeks with multiple binging episodes as learning opportunities.
I've figured out things about myself during this time.
Here is what I've learned:
1. I need to eat seated. When I don't, I overeat.
2. I need at least 30 minutes to eat really, really slowly. When I don't, I feel rushed, my belly tenses, I gulp my food, and I don't feel as if I've eaten.
3. I need to chew my food really well and really slowly, breathing deeply while I eat. When I don't, again my belly tenses, I gulp my food, and I don't feel as if I've eaten.
4. I am someone who needs to meditate in the afternoon when I'm transitioning from school/work rush to home life. When I don't, I feel frantic and harried and eat in that way.
5. I need to eat at very regular intervals, not allowing myself to get too hungry. When I don't, I feel ravenous, even if it's just psychological, I eat too fast, and I overeat. For me, this means...
Breakfast sometime between 8-9 in the morning.
Lunch around 1 or 1:30
Snack around 4:30
Dinner around 6 or 6:30
6. I need a post dinner ritual signifying the end of the meal - making a cup of herbal tea. When I don't, I also want to keep eating and that leads to binging.
7. I need at least 7 hours of sleep/night to feel good. When I don't get it, I'm irritable, impatient, and more apt to binge.
When I follow these guidelines, it's a lot easier for me to take care of myself. I feel energized by my meals, and I feel confident, powerful, strong, and much healthier in general.
My hope is that if I'm committed to these guidelines, they will become habitual quickly. I know for a fact that in the past, the better care I've taken of myself, the easier it gets over time because I feel so much better!
"We win half the battle when we make up our minds to take the world as we find it, including the thorns." -Orisen S. Marden