Thursday, October 31, 2013
I feel like I am at a crossroads - for about two weeks I have been too scared to weigh myself, and I have been not doing right. This week I have been sick as a dog, which has put paid to exercise in any meaningful way, too.
So, I could let myself off, put off the weigh in until I feel 'better' and.. probably drift back into old habits and old comforts OR I can remind myself that the weight is the same no matter whether I step on the scales or not, that I need to track where I am, and that acting NOW is always better than delaying.
I can't run when I am sick - it makes me injure myself. With this particular bug, even kettle bell makes my arms and legs ache unacceptably. But I can track calories, and I can get good sleep, and I can take steps to avoid binges.
In between now and Christmas, I am giving up chocolate (a binge trigger food for me) and pastry (I just think that the croissant breakfast is a bit of a waste of calories - there are better fats I could be eating) I am going to get back to the exercise as soon as I am well enough, and I am going to weigh every day without freaking out about it.
No matter where I am right now, no matter how much I have gained, owning the situation and acting will put me in a better place come Christmas time.