Wednesday, October 30, 2013
Today was my first one-on-one trainer session and I became anxious about it last night and hooboy did my trash talk go into overdrive. It became worrisome. I started to doubt. I've lost weight many times before, what makes me think this time will be different?
I don't, I guess, but the fact that my brain went into overdrive makes me think Trash Talker was feeling threatened so she started being more forceful and hitting those buttons that always seemed to make me sabotage myself in the past. Talked to the most supportive man in my life about it. I need to remember I am not doing this on my own, and not entirely for myself. I want to stay strong and healthy so we can hike well into our old age.
I need to learn to combat the Trash Talker. Tell her to calm down and clam up, I got this. We're going to have a good time with this new improved me.