I am doing so well. I don't know nor do I care (much) if or if not I have continued to loose weight. I feel so much better, fuller and satisfied. Of course there are things that don't go right 100%, like eating a bit too much or nibbling a bit throughout the day, yet, I don't have those stinking cravings anymore. I walk past the soda bottles in the supermarket and don't even start thinking: "One, once in a while, is ok". Okay, I have to admit that the thought tries to form yet it isn't like a battle in my head no more. It is SO liberating, so freaking liberating.
And you know, the funny thing is, that when I was at my heaviest I often wished to be skinny and THEN to be able to eat butter and full fat cheese and drink full fat milk. I fantasised about a skinnier me cutting off a slice of wonderful cheese accompanied by fresh raw cow's milk, inclusive the cream. Yet here I am, not skinny, not even wanting to be skinny, but healthy, and fit and in shape, and achieving this slowly WHILE eating those things, and drinking that milk. I can't tell you enough how satisfying it is to spread real butter on my freshly baked wholegrain sourdough bread. I'm still so bamboozled that this is happening to me. Saying "no" to a yummy looking cake doesn't feel like this huuuuge mental battle anymore... at least not at present. I am full on healthy fats, my portions are significantly smaller and generally I eat a lot less throughout the day, even though I nibble here and there on fruit or nuts or the like.
I got rid of many food stuff I didn't want to eat anymore, like light margarine and gave away some stuff as well, like a big tin of Milo. If I fancy a hot chocolate I mix some cocoa with honey and hot milk, doesn't take much longer then trying to get Milo dissolved anyways. We only have a little remnant of shop bought sweets left in the house, don't want my boys to be "weirdos" or go crazy with sweets once I'm not around, yet I try to make them absolutely happy with the healthy desserts I make myself, which often happens to be fruit and yogurt lately.
Now that I'm rocking this ship foodwise I struggle a little with the exercise side of things though. I am going to the gym on mondays, and walking the dog most days, yet I know and feel I need to get back into my exercise routine, getting challenged. Today I started the day with a workout video and life seemed so much better and much more manageable (despite offspring having meltdowns left and right)... ok, it being a GORGEOUS day and jolly warm which might have something to do with it as well.
And isn't it funny how your tastebuds change as you grow (older)???
Even a couple months, no , weeks ago, I would not have enjoyed this sandwich:
Sourdough bread, butter, dark green lettuce, lacto-fermented beets, smokede salmon and cheese.
My sourdough bread still slightly ressembles a brick yet it's actually quite good, inf act my three year old wahts to eat it plain, with nothing on it... I couldn't do that, but that's how he likes it best... weird fella... must come after his dad!!!!