Wednesday, October 30, 2013
I've managed to track the last two days. Yesterday I almost gave up, but pushed myself to track my mid-afternoon emotional eating. As it turns out, I managed to not eat anything the rest of the day and ate just over the range I currently have set, but still just under my maintenance range. I also managed to get in some exercise. This morning the scale read 191 -- which is what I set the tracker to a few days ago (before bloating/not eating well made it jump to 194). I'm pleased. While I want the scale to go down, at this point I'm just glad that it isn't going up. Today I'm hoping for a bit more nutrition. I had egg whites for breakfast -- along with an apple that I carried to work with me. I have a skinnytaste broccoli mac and cheese casserole in the fridge ready to cook for lunch. Since it is skinnytaste, it is a "light" mac and cheese made with whole grain pasta and (as you might have guessed from the name), a lot of broccoli. It is one of the freezer meals I made when I first found out that I was pregnant. Will plan to cook some extra veggies to have with it (or for afternoon snack).
At this point I think I'm close to being done with the physical part of the miscarriage. Bleeding has slowed. I'm really hoping today is the last day. Due to the large, bulky pads, I've been wearing maternity jeans the last almost-week. My regular pants never stopped fitting as normal wear, but with the extra bulk, they just aren't comfortable. And of course, these pants are huge on me.
Self care is hard. But I am taking baby steps. At this point, I'm proud of my last two days. Hoping to reach those first two goals (tracking for a week and exercising 5x) this week.