I have decided to cease the GM program today (day 4 out of 7) and start it again at a later date. I have already lost 1kg in the process so I’ll take that thanks! That brings my weightloss to 6.5kgs since mid September. YAY TEAM!
I was out for a luncheon today. The seafood restaurant chosen by my friend is well renowned for exceptional food and the seating is on a deck over seawater (just beautiful). This friend is from that wonderful gentleman style ‘old school’ and he absolutely insisted that he pay for both of us despite my protests (and my secret SP and GM motives to order the healthiest thing on the menu no matter what the expense, which he knew nothing about!).
The menu was extensive and they also catered for take away so they had a wide selection to choose from. My friend said he really felt like a hamburger with the works and then looked at me to choose. I thought, “oh crap” because I really wanted the more healthy choices that were on the menu, you know, the king prawns on skewers with side salad etc. BUT because he was paying I couldn’t bring myself to order one of these meals because they were more expensive so I matched his burger choice and ordered a fish burger, figuring it was the burger with the least amount of calories! It was either that or fish and chips or something else deep-fried and I quickly tried to calorie count in my head and thought the fish burger would be a better choice.
This is a friend that I wasn’t going to disclose the intricacies of my healthy lifestyle and weight-loss plans with – we did touch on it briefly and he said that I am the same weight I was the last time he saw me (which is actually true). So to him nothing had changed! To me my GM diet and SP world came crashing down around me with every bite – to which he was none the wiser (tee hee!). I held my poker face!
Don’t get me wrong, I want to shout to the treetops everything I am doing in order to get healthy and lose weight in fine detail and with all the trimmings, but I’m not stupid. I choose who I disclose my plans to wisely because, through experience, there are those people that will (unintentionally) not understand where I am at and may even (unintentionally) bring me down from my personal pedistool of courage and hope manifesting away nicely and I don’t want that. I don’t want any sabotages getting in the way of my plans and progress. There is a lesson in those words for someone out there no doubt.
I don’t believe this person would try and sabotage me at all (not intentionally anyway); it is just not the focus I wanted for our conversation because in his eyes I’m exactly as I was when he last saw me, so why bother. I’d rather spend the conversation on all the other things we had to catch up on. And I know by knowing him that he would have nothing really beneficial to offer me in that area. So I really believe you need to know your ‘opponent’ and release information accordingly. I say ‘opponent’ because no matter how well you know someone, everyone has the potential to become an opponent unintentionally! They can oppose what you are doing without even knowing they are taking on that opposing nature. All good friends and family members can change from allies to adversary in a nano-second. You still love each other just as much, they just can verbalise stuff that (unintentionally) stifles you, rather than grows you.
So to top it all off, I’m having a few wines tonight! As I said to an SP friend of mine tonight “It's not so much the food I ate, but the BIG dint it put in my psychological commitment to the 7 day program”. The GM diet is definitely now temporarily shelved for a date in the near future so stay tuned. Meanwhile I love my 1kg weightloss attributed to the first 3 days on the program!
Remember to always pick yourself up and dust yourself off, never dwell or you will end up doing more of the same, never let the mud stick because you’ll be positively at it again and successful in your endeavours in no time at all!
Have a great day/night everyone – onwards and upwards!!