Wednesday, October 30, 2013
Due to the M.E., depression and anxiety and subsequent loss of confidence I will go months without going out of the house at all. I've tried different things to get myself out the door, but none have worked. This time what I am going to try is: any day that I feel up to going out, I will go. Why I wasn't doing this anyway is because I wanted to time my days out to coincide with when the lads were out anyway, or when the library was open, etc. Now if I am awake, have the energy and no pain or feeling ill, I will get myself out the door, into town and enjoying the simple pleasure of being amongst other people!
This isn't the best idea for those with M.E., in that it is better to have regular routines, but I am so tired of not getting out there and living life that that I want to give this a go, for now.
If I start going out once a week, every week, I will be over the moon!
Edit: I just want to stress that my (adult ) lads love to see my going out for they know how much happier I am. My wanting to time it so that they were also out, at work and college, is because I'm struggling to get used to being on my own during the day, 3+ days a week so it made sense to me to try to be at home the days that they were around, and save going out for when I was alone.
I only realised how few days this was all leaving me to go out when I made this decision; I stopped and totted up how many days a week I was choosing not to go out, even if I felt fine: Mon/Tues/Sat at least one of the lads is home, and Thurs and Suns the library is closed. This meant that I was leaving myself only 2 days a week (Weds & Fri) to go out, and if I had any problems on either of those days, that was another week gone !
Thank goodness I made this new decision, and that I realised how much I'd been restricting myself.