Tuesday, October 29, 2013
Been so busy, I haven't hardly had time to THINK. I can't believe it's been almost a week since my last post!! (And weigh-in is tomorrow!!)
I've stayed within my calories, but as I say, the past week has been NUTSO.
The past two days, I've not made my water goals...my water bottles (just normal, plastic water bottles, which I reuse) have been disappearing, which I suspect is my bf's way of saying we need to give up on those and buy a new case of water. Which I did, yesterday. So, water acquired. But I really realized yesterday and today, how easy it actually is to forget water if you don't keep it nearby! Just the fact that it's across the branch from me makes it so much harder to get--no time, no reason to go over there...and suddenly, it's been all day without water!! Oy...
I've been working at Bath and Body a lot, which means active workdays...but also means I don't get home from working there and work out...mostly because I don't get home until 10:30, but also because I'm so tired when I get home! Yesterday I took a much-needed rest day (everyone around me is sick, I'm exhausted and stressed and have been feeling depressed and haven't been getting enough sleep), and today--well, today I have a call-in shift at bath and body after work at the bank, so....we'll see, I guess!
(Trying so hard to be upbeat about that call-in. I loathe them. Can't plan CRAP.)
Honestly, it's hard to be upbeat, in general. Literally, as soon as I hear that they want me to come in, my chest tightens up, my heart starts pounding, and I can't help it--I cry. Bf thought I hated bath and body--I don't. I hate having a second job, a second schedule...I hate that I can't do what I want, when I want to (including working out)!
But for now--I'm trying to get in touch with a little zen, and just make peace with the bullcrap.