Tuesday, October 29, 2013
Weight Watchers has been going great and I've got absolutely ZERO complaints about the program. I've never been on such an easy program!
Here's where life trips me up -- STRESS. We are a one-income family. My husband is a long-haul truck driver. He works pretty much daily and this gets us by for 2 reasons -- one, the money keeps coming in to pay the bills and two, it keeps him gone so we don't feel the need to fight all the time and probably get a divorce. Be that good or bad, it's the truth and the way we've managed to stay married and raise four kids for 15 years.
Problem is, he's developed back problems that lay him out for weeks. The last one hit toward the end of last winter. He was laid up for a little more than 2 weeks. No income and loads of doctor bills and expensive medications. Don't get me wrong, I don't want him to be in pain, but the expenses of getting sick when you live paycheck to paycheck and don't have insurance are all-consuming. He had to tell his boss this morning that he couldn't drive and to give the load to another driver. There's no telling how long he'll be laid up, how many medical bills will be waiting, how many hotel expenses we'll have to pay, before this is over.
And one of my biggest worries is that he'll lose this job completely. He works for the entertainment industry and their drivers do tours. He was lead driver for this tour. If he can't do his job/they can't depend on him, he'll lose this job and come home. As I said earlier, that WILL eventually lead to a divorce. I have no doubt. That'll be the end of homeschooling for my younger two kids. The girl will be fine, but my 9 yo dyslexic son does not thrive in public school. It would hit him the hardest.
I feel like eating my stress. Yes, I've tried exercising and it doesn't do anything for my stress at all. I wish it did, but it's never been a stress reliever for me even when I was an athletic-type in my early teens and young adult years. I can't read a book or go off to myself to clear my head, because I have all these kids and their needs that take up every minute of every day.
I'm praying for will power and that this isn't the death of my weight loss success.