A few weeks ago I ran into the woman who inspired me to finally make the decision to pursue WLS. She's lost well over 100 lbs, looks great and is REALLY into Zumba. I've texted her when I've achieved what I considered significant milestones (surgery date, 50 lb loss, 100 lb loss, etc.) I thank her for her inspiration and support.
What's been rattling around in my brain and poking me since I last saw her was her reply to my news that I hit 100 lbs down. She asked if I was 'at goal weight yet?'
My goals have always been to get off all my co-morbidity conditions meds
, lower my blood pressure and avoid getting diabetes (I was on the cusp.) That said, I met my goals immediately after WLS (getting off meds), having normal bp and NO diabetes. Getting healthy was and is my priority. Smaller sizes for me are the icing on the cake (that I no longer eat :)
Numeric goals like a certain weight or having to do something physically competitive (like running a 5K) stress me out. I haven't figured out why that is yet.
I like to do things 'my way'. I'm ok with my sloooooowwwww weight loss (now 1-2 lbs/month). I'm ok with walking and occasionally jogging more and more steps. I DO count them and like see them increase, but don't have a fixed number that I HAVE to achieve.
Maybe that's why this time is different for me. Every time I achieved my 'goal weight' as defined by others (WW, dr, peers), I would freak out and gain it all back plus more.
The most memorable time for me is when I actually achieved the weight that's listed on my driver's license (160 lbs)
I spoke about it at an OA meeting, realized what I was saying and immediately began the upward gain to 300lbs.
So for now I'm focusing on today. For me, each day is