Getting my Focus Back
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
It's been hard to really stay focused lately with all of the medical crap going on in my life. My mom is undergoing surgery this morning to remove the lump in her breast, so please if you could, keep her in your thoughts. I spoke with her last night and she was nervous but remaining positive, so that is good!
I was able to review some of my lab records yesterday online. My lactose intolerance test did come back a bit wonky, so I understand my doctor's concerns. My celiac blood test came back normal. Still waiting on the biopsy results, though. This Friday will be the colonoscopy, and hopefully that will go well. I am a bit nervous about it, but I am trying to be like my mom and just remain positive.
So in the midst of trying to remain positive, I'm also trying to redirect my focus back to health and fitness. One step that I took was chatting with my brother on Sunday night. We dont chat much on the phone because neither of us is a big phone talker, but occassionally we get a chance to spend some time talking and we enjoyed a 45 minute conversation the other night. I was telling him all about my stomach issues and food woes and that I am scared about my whole diet having to change - I mean, I know it would be for the better, but still out of my comfort zone - and he reminded me that it doesnt have to be difficult or complicated to make healthier food substitutions. Duh. I know this, but when he explained it to me I guess it clicked more? My brother is a chef, and he pretty much cooks all of his own food from scratch, even from bread. He helped me see that regardless of how my test results come back, I need to cook to make myself feel better, so if that means changing things up until I find what works for me, it is ok, and it might even be better. I dont know why it clicked so much coming from him, but it did. And I felt less down about it. In fact, I feel like now I want to go out and make all kinds of new recipes! So that's one positive.
I'm also trying to think about returning from my running hiatus, and training for another half marathon. I am registered to run Disney's Princess Half Marathon in February 2014, so I need to start training again in the beginning of December. I took a bit over a month off from running, but I've been pretty active even without running, so I dont think I will have lost too much running endurance. I've started looking into training plans, and finding something that will work for me. I only want to run 3x per week, but I would like to add in speed work this time because the Disney route is relatively flat except for the overpass around mile 11. I also want to be able to do strength training 3x week to keep my muscles strong (especially around my knees!), keep up with my dance classes 2x week, and I think I want to add in swimming! I know, right? Swimming in the middle of winter. But there's a pool on base, I've been wanting to start swimming again anyway, and I doubt it will be all that crowded in the winter! Plus, I want to do a triathlon next summer sometime, so starting swimming now would be a good thing because it's going to take me a while to get back into the groove of things. I feel like thinking about all of this makes me really excited to get through the rest of my medical tests and move forward with a healthier plan! I'm still working out the details, but I know it will consist of regular exercise and a lot more healthier meals and less eating out!
The last thing I am doing right now to stay positive is to think about Christmas. I LOVE Christmas. I would decorate for Christmas right now if I didnt think my neighbors would think I am crazy. Well, they might think I'm a bit off anyway since I vehemently hate pulling weeds (who likes that anyway?!). I told J I was going to put up my Christmas tree this week and he looked at me like I ahd 3 heads. Guess I'll wait a bit longer. But I am just really looking forward. And now that its getting cooler in the mornings and evenings, and darker earlier, and I cleaned out my living room recently, it makes me *feel* like Christmas is coming really soon! I've already started thinking about Chrsitmas presents, and I am hoping I can somehow set aside enough time to make quilts for my mom, grandma, aunt, and cousin. This is seriously ambitious! I am somewhat of a procrastinator (and cutting fabric takes a long time!) but I think homemade Christmas gifts are the best and I really want to do something from the heart this year. So we'll see how well that goes. I decided the one that I recently cut fabric for is going to be for my mom. I want to make sure I at least get one done for her. I think the fabric is much more her style than mine anyway. So I am hoping to make a big dent in the sewing of that one this week!
Also, last night I chatted on facebook with my cousin for a bit and she wants to come and visit me while she is on winter break from school. She is 20 and a sophomore in college. I am really hoping that we can figure out some dates that will work for both of us. It would be great spending some time with her. She is kind of like a mini-me in a way.
In the meantime, I should probably work on, ya know, work. I did stay a half hour later yesterday to catch up on some additional stuff and I have a few phone calls to make today. I am glad that things are relatively slow for me right now, though, so I can get through this difficult and stressful time.