Ok, I'm on a personal life journey, to find out who I am. Since I turned 60 this year things have been bothering me, not about getting old but who am I & what am I suppose to do with my life?
Is it too late to make changes?
If I don't make changes now, "where will I be next year?" I've always thought I was pretty religious but now I find myself even question that.
So I ask myself, "Do I always put God first?"
Do I really believe if I put it in his hands, will it make a difference?
At times I find myself asking God, "Why did you make me short & fat?" Why didn't I get the body, the beauty, the money, the brains, the great house like some of my family?
If I'm to be honest with myself, I'm not sure. I try to pray everyday, treat others fair, give to others but then I find myself asking, "Am I suppose to be doing more?"
I have been trying to live by the motto of paying it forward, I find myself when I have change coming back, I tell the clerk to put it towards the next person's order. However, wouldn't it be even better to be able to just pay for the next person in line?
So now I have joined a class at Church called, "Loving God" to see what it means. I'm a firm believer that things happen for a reason & this class just seemed to come up at the right time & everything fit to take it. It's a 6 week class, so it will be interesting to see where I am personally at the end.
I know that God has provided me with a lot & I don't want to sound ungrateful, I just want to know if I'm suppose to be & do more! I thank him everyday for what he has provided for me,now it's up to me to use it correctly.