Tuesday, October 29, 2013
I spent 20 minutes curling my hair today.
My outfit was perfect and I was going to wear a new red shirt.
Then instead of my vitamin I took my sleeping pills instead. The bottles were right next to each other and I wasn't even thinking. I was on auto pilot much like I am 90% of the time. What does it matter what time of day it is.. just a different packet of food that I eat. I take them at the same time, it's dark either way. As soon as my water glass hit the counter I realized I took the wrong pills. I ran the bathroom and forced myself to vomit. I may not have mentioned this before but I know how to do that. I had a whole eating disorder thing a while back that I don't feel like getting into. But the pills wouldn't go. All I had to throw up was water.
Because of my stupidity, I am missing work today. I felt like the world's dumbest idiot texting my boss. This is the first time in my life calling in sick to work. And my throat burns.
I'm not in a good place right now.