Monday, October 28, 2013
Like my first miscarriage, I've gained weight while anticipating and then this past week of physically going through the process. Some of that is because I'm an emotional eater, and some is because pizza is a food that comes cooked directly to one's home (we've had it twice in the last week -- once because an out-of-town friend wanted to send food and once because I was home alone in lots of pain, so cooking was not happening) . . . and then there was another day of eating out when my parents wanted to provide dinner for us. And, of course, I went for comfort over health, which meant I was eating far more than was actually necessary. I want to turn this cycle around before I gain the 10 (+?) pounds that I did last time.
I am still trying to give myself grace, as I am still in the full process of miscarrying (luckily I didn't have to wait long for it to start this time). But I know that treating myself well by eating nutritious foods and trying to get in some movement will help me far more than simply letting myself eat my emotions.
I've set new goals for myself. This first week, my goal is to simply track what I eat. I'm adding some other small goals to my to do list -- like drinking at least 8 cups of water and getting 10 minutes of exercise (which sounds less daunting than the sort of goal I would aim for normally).
I'm counting on your support to help me take care of myself. I did well tracking on Saturday, but completely failed yesterday, deciding instead to feed my cramps.