The quiet before the storm.
Monday, October 28, 2013
The morning started out beautiful. It was sunny and a little cool (not sure what the temperature was when I got up.) I started feeling sick around 11 am. Not sure what was going on with my stomach.
Then I had a meltdown. I know Heavenly Father watches over us, because the Bishop noticed I wasn't in church and called me. He came over later. It is so nice to talk to him. I feel safe in his presence and I can feel the Holy Ghost comforting me when he gives me a blessing.
I believe that trials make us stronger, but how many do I have to go through? How long do I suffer through these meltdowns before I overcome them?
Love, faith and hope. Not doubt, fear and hopelessness.
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I dunno if you believe in this, but as a Catholic (Christian), I believe that sufferings could be offered up to Christ to atone for how others have offended Him. It's like every time we suffer, we could think about how Christ suffered and say to Him that we are joining our pain with His. I'm sure Christ still suffers now with the many bad things going on in the world. So, if we reflect that we, too, are suffering alongside Christ, not only does it make Him feel better and make us closer to Him, it also helps lessen the pain that He feels because of our own and the world's sinful nature.
Also, if you are really feeling sad and depressed, try treating yourself out every once in awhile. Maybe you just need a change in scenery? Maybe it would help to sit in a restaurant and order a meal, just so you can be around different people. Or maybe there is something in your life that just needs to be weeded out, like an activity that God has been telling you to let go of? Like I dunno, there might be certain people or certain situations that the Lord just wants you to avoid so you can get closer to Him. Dunno if I am making sense to you right now. I know I had to weed out a lot of bad friendships in the past that I wasn't aware was causing me to be depressed.
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Oh Angie! I wish I were closer!
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I'm sorry that you're feeling the way you are, but I'm rejoicing in the Lord, because of the situation you're in. Each trial, or as you say, "melt down", is a blessing from God. Do you realize that each time you come out of one of those trials, that God, Himself, was holding you with his mighty right hand and walking through that fiery furnace with you, making SURE that He brought you out as PURE GOLD!!! I've had many fiery furnace trials, with the car accident I was in. I spent 6 months in the hospital, I had to learn every thing all over again, like a little baby, which included learning how to walk, again, getting out of the bed into my wheel chair, then going up hill to get back into the bed, from my wheel chair, the first time I went to physical therapy, all the pins and rods, in my leg foot, and through my heel, being able to sit up the first time, even trying to get into a shower chair for the first time, so I could attempt to clean myself. All of those and many more were fiery trials, but each and every time God was faithful and He held me with is might right hand and brought me out as PURE GOLD!!! There were some fiery trials, that God literally carried me in his arms, to remold and shape his temple, and still brought me out as PURE GOLD!!! That's what this journey here on SP is all about, also. This is a fiery furnace trial, and when God gets done with us, we're coming out as PURE GOLD!!! In fact it's already happened in the spiritual realm, but it's up to us to pray it into the physical realm. God ordained all of our lives, even before the creation of the world, and this is just a stepping stone, on a journey where God wants us to edify others and help them meet their goals!!! God never promised it would be easy, but He did promise trials and tribulations!!! Take heart and REJOICE, no matter where you're at. It makes the devil MAD! Did you know that the closer you are to God the harder Satan tries to make you fall, to put that feather in his cap of "Look what I just did to this saint! I've brought doubt, regret, and defeat to this saint, and his/her mind is no longer stayed on GOD". Then Satan gets the victory. However we know the end of the story, which is our ULTIMATE VICTORY!!! But even better than that, Satan knows it too and he can't do anything about it!!! GLORY TO GOD IN THE HIGHEST!!!
- Nancy Jean -
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1180 days ago
Sending good vibes and affirmations your way! How lovely your bishop called on you to make sure you were alright. Do what you need to do to feel better!
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