I love that the people in this world who most inspire me are people who continuously re-invent themselves - could be something as simple as a new hairstyle, a new outfit, a new hobby or a new job, but they continually re-assess their lives and continually make changes accordingly. They decide what they want, they find it, they pursue it and then they get it and they are CONSISTENT in this approach to life. I love that. They make it look so easy, but with practice comes skill and with experience comes wisdom.
I want to be able to re-invent myself more often - I can so easily get stuck in my ways and not try new things because I'm comfortable where I am. I'm going to make a point to self to get outside of my comfort zone more often - I'm not sure exactly what that means yet to me, in my life right now, or how to apply it, but I am going to ponder it.
This weight loss journey is a big part of that - I ask myself 'what is holding me back?'. What physical aspect, what psychological aspect and what financial aspect could possibly be holding me back from the small and the BIG changes I need and want to make in my life?
This weightloss journey is one of the BIG changes in life that I have currently embarked on to re-invent myself and I need to not lose sight of this fact, this is a huge commitment of my time and energy. I am putting the effort in to make this happen and it is quite consuming and at times emotional, but through experience comes wisdom. Soon I will know by experience what 1 cup looks like, or what 1 serving of this or that should be or what 100 grams feels like without having to measure, monitor, weigh, portion off etc. But for now I have to keep the scales and measuring cups out on the kitchen bench.
I took a leaf out of a few SP friends books this morning (IAM146 POUNDS, DANDELLIE, FRENCHIEFILLE and KIMMEG to name a few) and changed my icon and sparkspage as another symbol of re-inventing myself and I had a hairstyle change last week which I still feel great about! I'm also enjoying cleaning out many items in the house I no longer use or want and changed around some decor so these are all symbols of re-invention.
Probably the thing I'm most looking forward to is feeling confident in different styles and fitted outfits which I have not played around with much since putting on weight and growing out of most things I own. As I got larger I tended to buy less flattering clothes and more baggy dull clothes. I see lots of full figured ladies in very flattering bright coloured outfits and they look great, but I am psychologically held back from wearing that sort of gear, otherwise I would! In saying that my curves are not in the right places to look as good as them, I have more of an athletic figure when the weight comes off and I've never been a girlie girl - always been a bit of an outdoorsy type tom boy playing in the mud so more comfortable in shorts and pants than I am in skirts and dresses.
I have some sentimental stuff going on - my new blue ulysses butterfly icon is chosen because it is seen as a tourist symbol of Queensland, the state where I live in Australia and I'm so proud to be an Ausralian and the green butterfly on my sparkspage was one of my favourite memories growing up as a child in PNG. Unfortunately in those days mum used to collect butterflies so I used to help her catch them and this was the one I was always chasing after with a net - very large butterfly in those days which was larger than my hand! But I loved and adored their beauty and wonderment and still do.
Today is Day 2 of the 7 day GM weightloss program I have embarked on and I have vegetables dry baking in the oven which will be my breakfast and snack food throughout the day.
I still have housework to do which I didn't complete yesterday, got bogged down a bit in procrastination - so I must ask myself "what's holding me back from doing my housework!!??"
To end with I played around with some simulated weightloss avatars online - here is my starting and finishing weight (from 91kgs to 68kgs)....
Here is the link to this particular avatar - takes 5 seconds to do.....
Have a great day everyone!