Sunday, October 27, 2013
An obsessive behaviour I have when I have lost weight is to try on the clothes thats been hanging in my wardrobe ... and this occured today.I havenīt really admitted it to myself but for the last...two years or so I have not been wearing anything but t-shirts or tanktops with a shirt over and black sweatpants, soft and not hard on my waist...my jeans has been on the shelves - I have two sizes and have even heistated about the bigger ones.
And it is a joy to wear clothes that I haveīn been wearing for two years, they are loose on the hips and even tha smaller sizes of jeans fits well, not entirely comfortable but I guess that if I had them on they would be because the stretch after wearing them for a while...
It was a surprise because even if the scale shows me that I am 14 kilos down I donīt really believe it, think I am somehow fooling myself, I am really distorted in my head.
But nevermind, suddenly I have a lot more clothes to choose between in the morning, that is really nice.
I have also left the "extremely obese" and entered the group of "very obese" I donīt know if you have the varieties in "Obese" in english, in sweden 30 to 35 is "obese" 35-40 is "very obese" and over 40 is "extremely obese".
You nee to have a BMI over 40 to be considered for a gastric bypass and I have now disqualified myself
Now I am hunting to reach "obese"... that will take another 15 kilos down, so it will ot be this year but hopefully in spring 2014.
But whoooah there, I am as usually jumping ahead and fantasising about the day I will be slim... for today I am very happy to have extended my wardrobe!