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Reflecting

Saturday, October 26, 2013

Whenever I go to my Spark Page, I see all those pictures staring there at me. I wonder how I managed to get that bad to begin with. I thought I was happy then, but in reality I was really lost. I was sad and I didn't feel like I was worth things. I've never had low self esteem, but I just got lost in the shuffle of marriage and kids. The weight gain actually happened before I got married, I had a dead end job where I sat all the time and felt like there was nowhere for me to rise in the job.

What has happened to allow me to lose the weight? We're not really all that much different in our position in life, we're just feeling a little more stable, despite not seeing much potential in my husband's job, it's just a job. We're in a clean enough environment where we live. The kids are doing well in school and I'm starting to find my me again.

I've gotten used to how I shop and have figured out the best way to feed my family on a really tight budget. Nothing is bland because I have a great herb garden and, at this point, no longer costs anything for me to harvest from.

Seeing those pictures also reminds me that I don't want to go there again. It was uncomfortable and hard on me. As much as I love candy and cookies, they're not worth having every day so that I gain back all that was lost. I have found new things to do that are more active and fun to do with the people I do them with. I enjoy the relationships that I've gained from my new attitude toward life. I enjoy my time here and like to do things and discover the world as it is in the quiet places.

The world is as you see it and it can either be ugly in the greater area or beautiful in the corners that are left undiscovered.


Today's Holidays: Worldwide Howl at the Moon Night, Mule Day, Make a Difference Day, Pumpkin Day, Texas Chicken Fried Steak Day, Mincemeat Pie Day and National Mincemeat Day.
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TANYA602 10/27/2013 4:59PM

    I truly am so proud and happy for you. You are in such a great place and you deserve to feel like the strong, healthy woman that you are. No more sadness. Whip it under the rug. We've been given a second chance to enjoy life. I love it!

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BRENDA_G50 10/27/2013 10:43AM

    It's all about choices. Sometimes we make good ones and sometimes we don't. You hit the nail on the head when you said "...candy and cookies, they're not worth having every day...". As one of my SP friends said in one of her blogs, "A treat is NOT a treat if you have it every day". Between the two of you, I think I'm finally getting the message. emoticon

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KABMPH 10/27/2013 9:45AM

    Thank you for sharing these thoughts. I'm glad you feel so much better about life, and I really appreciated the comment about candy and cookies... It's my biggest weakness. They aren't worth having every day is something I need to remember!

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MAYBER 10/26/2013 10:51PM

    Choice Dedication Determination====Success
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KAREN608 10/26/2013 7:53PM

    I'm in progress, and working on thinking like a thin person, AND refinding me again too. You really do get lost in overweight and family chores sometimes. More balance is so important.

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THINFITKINDVGAN 10/26/2013 7:53PM

    The world is actually an outward picture of inward thoughts. Always.

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SHOURESSOOTE 10/26/2013 7:27PM

  I just want to say that you're awesome for making the changes that you did and getting onto the path of being healthier and making better food choices. emoticon

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