Saturday, October 26, 2013
Whenever I go to my Spark Page, I see all those pictures staring there at me. I wonder how I managed to get that bad to begin with. I thought I was happy then, but in reality I was really lost. I was sad and I didn't feel like I was worth things. I've never had low self esteem, but I just got lost in the shuffle of marriage and kids. The weight gain actually happened before I got married, I had a dead end job where I sat all the time and felt like there was nowhere for me to rise in the job.
What has happened to allow me to lose the weight? We're not really all that much different in our position in life, we're just feeling a little more stable, despite not seeing much potential in my husband's job, it's just a job. We're in a clean enough environment where we live. The kids are doing well in school and I'm starting to find my me again.
I've gotten used to how I shop and have figured out the best way to feed my family on a really tight budget. Nothing is bland because I have a great herb garden and, at this point, no longer costs anything for me to harvest from.
Seeing those pictures also reminds me that I don't want to go there again. It was uncomfortable and hard on me. As much as I love candy and cookies, they're not worth having every day so that I gain back all that was lost. I have found new things to do that are more active and fun to do with the people I do them with. I enjoy the relationships that I've gained from my new attitude toward life. I enjoy my time here and like to do things and discover the world as it is in the quiet places.
The world is as you see it and it can either be ugly in the greater area or beautiful in the corners that are left undiscovered.
Today's Holidays: Worldwide Howl at the Moon Night, Mule Day, Make a Difference Day, Pumpkin Day, Texas Chicken Fried Steak Day, Mincemeat Pie Day and National Mincemeat Day.