Saturday, October 26, 2013
My biggest NSV happened today! Things got off to a poor start when I set off for the gym. I couldn't find my running top (today is 5K day on the treadmill!) so I had to put on a very, very tight one. I did not look forward to sucking my gut in while jogging for 5K. Then, when I started jogging the cord to my mp3 player got snagged on a clip and that was the end of my music. Two things I need to do my best- music and mint gum. I had neither because in a rush to do errands before the gym I forgot to take my gum too! Anyway, I managed to complete the distance. First, let me explain that over 90% of the people using my gym are regulars like me. I have seen the same people for years. I joined when it opened about 40 years ago. I do not look at people or say anything because I am always self-concious of my weight. They are nice people, but they talk to everyone but me because I must telegraph my extreme self-conciousness. Today, a handsome, buff regular initiated a nice conversation with me! When he started talking I looked behind me to see who he was talking to, but there was no one there and he was looking right at me! I felt like 2 million bucks and I sang all the way home. What amazing joy, I feel light-headed! It has got to be because I look more confident and approachable lately.
Do any of you watch “Super Fun Night”? I think Rebel Wilson is very pretty and she does an excellent portrayal of the feelings overweight women endure. I can identify with every one of the feelings of the character she portrays, although I certainly lack her sense of humor.
I still have a long, hard job ahead, but every positive event is a huge help to keep me going.