Saturday, October 26, 2013
Honestly...I cannot fathom what possesses me to stop surrendering. I cannot describe with words the RELIEF that comes when I do it. I felt like sh*t yesterday...and during most of the last week...and today, I feel like I've been born again. ALL over the mere act of SURRENDERING. I know how great this feels. I know how safe and secure I am in this moment. And yet the day inevitably comes when I deny. When I protest. When I fail. I don't understand this. And I know I don't have to understand. It's just the seeker in me, the mystery solver in me, the analyzer in me that asks. It strikes me as so weird because no one does this to me. I am SOLELY responsible for that scenario.
That's exactly why Presence is so imperative, Stephi...she says softly...lol.
Hello, My Dear. YOU went into the future last week. You insisted on moving into the figment of your imagination called 'what if' and 'how come'. That made ACCEPTANCE AND SURRENDER impossible!! It really is simple, Sweetness. Just stay Present...the rest will always take care of itself!
I've had so many changes recently.
Yes, you have, so what you did, while it was not necessarily helpful, was completely natural. And I'm proud of you for not judging yourself for going astray. You really are progressing when you simply review the situation at hand and respond accordingly. You saw where you were. You stopped and mad a u-turn. That's the best you can do while here in the flesh. Judgment would have messed that ALL up!
Yeah...I remember those days.
Just keep putting one foot in front of the other in every present moment...and I'll keep taking care of the rest.
okay. thank you. i love you.
I love you too, Darling :-) Welcome home!