Today is day 11 of my streak!
A couple of years ago, I belonged to a women's gym. One day, one of the members came in with a scrapbook she was creating about her weight loss journey. She had lost about 50 lbs, and was very close to her goal weight. Everyone took a look at her scrapbook, which was really well done and creative. The first pages were her "before" pictures, with her at her top weight. Even though she was overweight, she was still lovely and had a great smile. But yet...the pages with her "before" pictures were decorated with cows and pigs, and she had written some pretty rude comments about herself! She called herself "Fatty" and there was even a comment she'd written that said something about being too big to fit in the barn with the cows.
Everyone who looked at that scrapbook got a chuckle over those pages, and then moved on to the rest of the book, oohing and ahhing over how much progress she'd made. But to be honest, those first pages kind of left a bad taste in my mouth. And even though that happened a few years ago, I still think of it from time to time.
It just strikes me as incredibly sad that she would put herself down that way. The world is ready to put you down enough as it is, so why be so denigrating to yourself?
When I look at my own "before" pictures, I don't say bad things about myself. This is me, on March 1, 2012, when I started my journey;
(More pictures.."before" and "during"...are in my Spark photos.)
When I look at those pictures of the old me, it brings tears to my eyes. Tears of love and gratitude! I wish I could go back in time and give myself a hug and say "Thank you for having the courage and strength to get started. Thank you for not giving up even though it was super hard. Thank you for stealing your life back!"
I will never hate the person I used to be, because she is the one who got started and brought me to where I am today. I still have a long way to go on my journey, but thanks to the "before" version of me who had the guts to take that first step, I have lost 71 lbs and gotten so much healthier.
As of today (October 26) there are 66 days until New Years Day! I have been challenging myself to make as much progress as I can by January first. I am working hard to make this a healthy holiday season! I have a few Spark friends who are joining me on this challenge, and one of them told me I should start a team. So....I think I might! Right now its just in the "under consideration" stage. But if you would be interested in joining a private team with me (with our focus being on having a healthy holiday season) let me know. If I get enough interest, I will start a private team and send you an invitation.
PS: Love yourself no matter what your weight is. Love yourself enough to take care of your health, because you are worth it!