Friday, October 25, 2013
Oh boy, it has been awhile. And I have totally blown a lot of the changes I had been making. I say I lost focus, but in reality it is probably worse than that. I wonít say I have fallen back in to depression, but I am likely spiraling that way.
I am starting feel like I am in the confessional. It has been about a week since I have done any meaningful fitness work. I have not logged food or exercise in awhile. I have not abandoned the site and have been coming on to spin the wheel but I have not done anything else. Not sure what is going on mentally other than right now, I am not feeling like I care about much. I obviously donít care about my diet or exercise right now.
Somehow I have to pull myself back to the program so to speak. I did do something to my back and that has been bothering me all week so that explains a little why I wasnít going to the gym. It is on the upswing though and starting to feel better. So I am hoping I may be able to hit the gym tomorrow or Sunday.
This will sound weird, or maybe not. But I have gotten so many compliments and good jobs thrown my way, that it almost makes me wonder if I am ultimately scared to really succeed at this. I know I have bragged about people noticing, but right around the time they started commenting is when I really started to struggle.
Anyway, that is what I am struggling with.